That’s What I Like

Annyeong! Yes, it’s quite a long time since I was able to post something here. Mianhae!~ Well, I must say I’m doing fine with my current work. What I’ve been praying for is for me to have a favorable schedule and performance all throughout. Having shifting schedule is okay, all I’m praying is a favorable one. Enough for me to still be able to bond with my cousins from abroad (who came for a couple of months long for vacay) even on weekdays.

And I must admit that I still feel gloomy most of the time, thinking that until now, the right guy still hasn’t come yet. Last month and so, the guy who I used to taught I have a special connection with, tested the waters again and thought he can still stir up something between us. Of course, I didn’t take it seriously because I know for a fact that he’s just looking for someone to play with again. I mean, grow up. When will you learn to take someone seriously? 
As to why I don’t want to grow fond of someone too much easily not unless they get to prove something. Take it from me who already experienced being the one who’s pursuing someone instead of the one being pursued. I just hope and pray that God would already lead me to that someone that will prove to me that not all guys are alike. 

Nothing Else Matters

Annyeong! Must admit I purportedly posted this particular blog post a few days ago. My apologies, it has been a busy week at the offi ce. How are yoy guys doing?

In the past few weeks, I’ve noticed the very core of what the cliche-but-true, “There are people who will come into your life that would change you the way you are.” Since I got bullied many times before, I used to be excessively appreciative too much on people I hold dearly to the point of giving everything even though they came off not worthy of all the effort and whatnot.

A couple of weeks ago, a random guy approached me while I’m killing the time at the mall. But of course, I didn’t entertain him since I know how dangerous it is to meddle with strangers these days. And I’ve been there before. Trusting someone I just met who’s a total stranger which I thought was real but left in an instant so he turned out to be just a waste of time and effort.

Suffice to say, you really have to be careful and know the person first before pouring yourself out to avoid crying over spilled coffee. You can’t just go over meet someone for the first time and next thing you know, that person knows everything about you. Furthermore, we should always know who and who not to meddle yourselves with (at least not too quick, wait for the right time, just in case).

Fear Not

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Oh hello busy bees! I’m pretty sure everyone is preoccupied with what happened in the last day of the year 2016 yesterday which most probably consists of preparing ourselves with media noche and pondering over our New Year’s resolution/s. So I decided to shed light on my cozy sweater weather mood by bringing out one of my lil’ bulky but comfy sweater and dance my way to comfort by pairing it with my denim shorts and trustee Nike Airforce 1 kicks. With regard to new year shenanigans, rather than a resolution, what I have is goals for 2017.
1. Constantly prayed that I would be able to be employed before 2016 ends. After months of going on job fairs, applying online  and etc, I was blessed to have one. Since I admit that I didn’t able to give my 100% best on my previous one, I promised God that I will give my utmost effort to do better this time with His grace and mercy, I believe I can do it.

2. Funny and cliche as it seem but I aspire to lose weight on 2017 by resisting the temptation of going zany over food most of the time and eating just a half cup of rice for the whole day. Not sure if I’ll go to the gym once or twice a week or I’ll just buy treadmill or elliptical bike and use it indoors. I love food but if I won’t do this now, when?

3. Went through a lot this year and it made me realize how much I need God in my life and how it pays to have a closer relationship with Him. So I’m aiming to be able to attend the Wired service in our church which is for professionals that I should have attended before. I’m also praying that God would lead me to the rightful ministry that He intends me to be in and be able to grow and be active there.

4. I have various things that I need to save money for. I admit I tend to be impulsive at times. And this coming 2017, I need to discipline myself not to be blinded in dwelling on too much luxuries but instead,keep in mind the things I’m ought to save for.

Overall, I’m hoping and been praying that 2017 will be a year of growth for me – career, spiritual, personal etc. May God give us the enough wisdom, strength, courage, motivation and favor for us to reach our goals in 2017. Fear not! – He is the Lord of all miracles, of hope and of peace. He is our superhero!

Everyone’s Got Something

Ohayu gozaimasu! How are you guys doing? Sorry for being inactive for the past couple of weeks. Well, I must say that things are really shifting and change is taking place in alost all facets of my life. My graduation was held last Friday at PICC Plenary Hall (Stay tuned for my blog post about that big day I had this week!) and I already start the ball rolling with regards to job hunting online such as at Job Street and JobsDB.

It felt like it all came so fast and next thing I know, the girl who just read the newspaper and head straight to the entertainment section and nothing else turned to a graduating student who never want to waste time after finishing college with that, looks forward to job fairs and go directly to the classified ads in the newspaper.
Just to be candid, I used to be the happy-go-lucky type who doesn’t take life too seriously. I was the unmotivated one and everything was all fun and games to me. Before.

In just a snap, I became the hungry for success type. The one who aims to find a job (a stable one, hopefully!) right after college. Maybe it’s all because of my insecurities that made me to a person I’m today. To all those people who belittled and underestimated me that’s pushing me to do better and attain the success I’m yearning for.
In order for me to prove all those people wrong for not believing in me and which later on made me not to believe in myself as well. For my insecurities to vanish into thin air and when the wind comes swirling back to me, all of it would turn into confidence and the heart that has been torn would finally meet its sunshine.

As for this look, it was what I wore during our second day in Baguio last month. Yes, last month. I know my day 2 & 3 travel diary was immensely overdue. And please forgive me for being late on posting it due to my preparation for graduation and stuff. And I sincerely promise that I would be posting the Baguio | Day 2 tomorrow. Back to the actual look, this came a bit of a surprise to me. Since I originally planned of pairing my oversized checkered shirt dress with my black skater skirt instead of my violet-marsala skirt. Due to my comfort-over-style rule, I decided to wear the marsala one then. Because there would never be an excuse with conforming to what you think will look lovely on the outside but deep inside you, you’re not genuinely comfortable on what you’re wearing, right?

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More photos of this look on tomorrow’s day 2 of my Baguio travel diary. Stay tuned!

Run On Love

Oh hello! After all the lazy hazy mood or festive shenanigans we revel ourselves into, classes & work resumed. But due to the Pope’s visit here in the Philippines, all of us enjoyed an extended super long vacay. As for me, since I only have classes during MWF, I had a 6-day vacay. And in the past few days, the harsh reality came crashing in front of me – again.

I would admit that I tend to be pasaway and you know the feeling when the cliché “the truth hurts” and “the truth will set you free” slaps you right in the face to wake you up from something you can’t escape from. Some of us, or should I say, most of us refuse to face the reality and tend to fool ourselves with what we choose to believe which is basically a lie. Truth be told, I’ve been like that for a long time just recently.
So I ended up finding it hard even more to let go of people who doesn’t even deserve to be an issue in my life. That the ones who I invest too much effort, feelings & time are the same people who don’t even exert effort & take me seriously just like how I do to them. If some of you regularly read my blog posts, I know I already have heaps of posts about moving on & stuff. It’s not that easy to move on and they say there’s no formula for that.

But of course, if there’s a will, there’s a way. After all, it’s not my loss. It’s his. Ensuing on with today’s look, as we grow up, we tend to change our style preference, right? As for me, at first, I prefer the print on print formula and leggings that in my opinion now is too mainstream already. I go for the basic ones and dark hues which goes something like this:

Bowler Hat & Skirt from H&M | Tights from Claire’s | Boots from Doc Martens

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Change Your Ticket

Annyeong! Today’s the end of 2014 & apparently the start of another year, (2015) which commonly most of us desire to have their fair share of aspiring to start anew and be the better version of ourselves. But very seldom that we stay true, consistently stick and live by those so-called resolution/s we engage themselves with.
New year’s resolution as most of us perceive it. When you really, really, (like really!) want a big change (in a good way, obviously) to take place in your everyday life, then do something about it. Because no one can ever help you change but yourself.
And in order for you to do that successfully, you have to think first of all your life goals (be distinct), formulate ways on how you can be able to pursue those & stick with it – with all your heart, soul & mind! What’s the sense of coming up with life goals if you’ll just disregard it afterwards? You’re just making fool out of yourself & end up getting worst than ever.

As for me, I’m not that serious with goals, resolutions and stuff before. But of course, as we grow up, we get to learn new things from experience & other people. And worst, from pain. So as 2015 starts, I don’t wanna ever be in the place wherein I always have to run after people just for them to stay with me. If you don’t have plans of staying, then so be it. I’m not anybody’s toy or pet dog that you can ignore and leave in the pedestal whenever you want. Hey, I’m human. I have feelings too. Having said that, I decided to bid farewell to 2014 and to old habits/ways and people that I utterly value but don’t deserve it, as well. Yes it’s hard. But with God, I know I can do anything. And so, goodbye 2014 & to the people I love but don’t deserve my time, effort & tears. Annyeong, 2015!

With this, as seen on my facebook account, I had my first photoshoot for 2015 & here’s the outcome:

Checkered Button down from GUESS? | Bowler Hat from H&M | Tank Top from Zara | Tutu Skirt from Forever 21 | Boots from SAX

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I Like You

Annyeong! How are you guys doing? I had my birthday celebrated a couple of days ago. And we chose to eat dinner at Yakimix. At first, the latter had a constant dispute with Vikings Luxury Buffet. But the former reigned and of course, it made our tummies zany and came home with a dozen of donuts to munch the next day. Apparently, truth be told, I had my pre-birthday celebration last November 8 with my favorite auntie & brother where we also witnessed the ever fluffy, marshmallow-like, super adorbs Baymax courtesy of Big Hero 6 at Powerplant Cinemas, had two doses of TCB during the day and took the 12-inch Mighty Ton burger & huge milkshake, The Milky Way at The Porch by Casa Verde.

On the other hand, turning 21 was like a total different story for me. (OMG! I feel old already! *hides face*) Late at night, when we reached home, I came up with divergent realizations as to what the past year taught me. In my relationships with people, in particular. Maybe some of you might find me sensitive or whatsoever. (some of you who follows & reads my posts everytime/most of the time, if there’s any) But I’m just expressing my thoughts & feelings. Nothing’s wrong with staying true to ourselves, right? That’s better rather than pretending something you’re not.

In relation to that, facing and accepting the truth is better than making yourself believe on things that you want to perceive as the truth but you know there were all just lies. Like for example, you’re making yourself believe that someone you love will love you back someday. But the truth is, you know that person won’t. To be blunt with you, I experienced that just recently. If some of you read my previous posts you’ll understand well what I’ve been through with a certain guy (somehow). Having said that, it led me to another realization that we should not force things to happen that are not meant to be. Or else, reality will come & slap you right in the face with the truth. One thing I learned with all the excessive heartbreaks that I’ve encountered in the past (especially with a certain guy) is that we should not put our guards down way too fast & trust people just like that. For almost everything in this world is temporary. Including people and their feelings. A lot of guys out there may come into your life and make you feel you’re special to them. But only one of them, in the right time, are meant to stay in your life forever. So we should not make decisions just like that without thinking of the million possibilities that may happen afterwards. Expectations might kill you alive.

Personally, I’ve encountered those A LOT. People letting me down after all I’ve done for them and stuff. Oh please, I had too much. Then it hit me, why would I let me lose myself trying to hold on to people who don’t even care nor afraid of losing me? Reality taught me that, by the way. So we should open our eyes with what’s real rather than drowning ourselves with things that we just want to believe in. On the other hand, being a K-pop fangirl for the past few years, I must say, it translates on what I opt to wear. After all, as the cliche puts it, we are what we wear, isn’t?

Bowler Hat from H&M | Watch from Swatch 

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Little Me

Hi there! Sorry for my insolvency this past months/weeks, well, due to our midterm and final period in my final year in college (hopefully!!), I can’t post as frequent as I usually do before.

On the other hand, I hope you don’t mind if I vent my feelings here. I just can’t take the fact that the world is like being turn upside down nowadays. In general, whether when it comes to friends, I’ve been encountering people that I got conflict with that the person seem to be insensitive and find it hard to admit her fault and not seem to know how to say sorry. It’s like that person is unbelievably expecting I would be the one to apologize despite of the fact that I’m not the one at fault. And I have another ex-friend who had been my “comforter” before about my problems with a certain guy. She’s been there for me at all times, especially when I need a shoulder to lean on. At that time, I was utterly thankful of having her in my life. Not until, the heartbreaking day came that she left me in an instant. No explanations, no signs of the idea of her, leaving me. Nothing. Not to mention that I send numerous messages to her in facebook, asking her what went wrong. But she chose to ignore all of those & fling off our friendship that I taught was a real one. It led me to wondering if real friends still exists these days. Only God does.

On the auxiliary aspect, subsequent to the avowed aspect, when it comes to love, oh boy! I think I don’t feel the need to elaborate it further. It makes me feel little even more that all of the said people is so much happy with their lives by putting someone down. With all of those, my thought of going to consultation is growing hefty than ever. Gee, I don’t know. So help me, God!

Proceeding with my look post, well, I must admit that this particular look is a backlog. Meaning, this was taken I think, last year! I just found out that I still have it and so, there. The statement top says it all! Don’t you agree? Just what I needed to do!

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Break Free

Annyeong! Okay okay, I know it’s been (almost) a couple of weeks since I should’ve posted my recent look post. And my apologies for the said matter. It’s just that these past few weeks have been the peak of our stressful requirements and activities since I’m in my final year on college (with God’s grace and mercy!!). With that, I can’t find enough time to post this one. Especially our final exams is coming up in two weeks and we’re like drowning with the stress due to some of our professors bombarding us with school works.

Not to mention my state right now. As some of you remember from my prior posts that I found out that I’ve been suffering from depression. And at this point in time, after reading various articles (from the net, newspaper & even listening unexpectedly in the radio), I’m pretty much puzzled as to what type of depression I’ve been tangled into way before. And I’ve been having thoughts of going into consultation perhaps, if time and ample courage permits me.
With regards with my look atm, well, I can’t seem to hold myself away from my excessive adornment with florals. ‪#‎SorryNotSorry‬ right there. Teehee!

There are really those times where we just don’t care if what we wear is in trend or not, what matters to us is our personal preference. Though I’m not saying that floral is out of trend or whatsoever, okay? My point is, we shouldn’t force or perhaps, sacrifice our own style preference just for us to be able to follow today’s trend. Got my point?

Flower Crown from Jellybean | Floral vest from Forever 21 | Shoes and skirt from SM Dept Store

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Simple As That

Annyeong! As some of you read in my preceding posts that I’m been very busy with school works and not to mention the tantrums of the Typhoon Glenda precluded me even more from getting things done. What made it worst is all the stress and disappointments ate me alive. I got sick last week that made me not attend my OJT duties and my Friday classes.

And if you’re wondering why I’ve been disappointedd these days, well. I affixed million times before that I fondly get attached too fast to people that I meet. Recently, I have this one friend that I met in our church. I got close to her in a snap of a finger. And as days and weeks go by, we became like salt and pepper. Then the next thing I know, she’s like avoiding and ignoring me like crazy. At present, I sent her numerous messages on Facebook and she left all of those unread up to now.

As far as I remember, I didn’t do anything that may lead us to this. And I was like, why do people find it easy to leave me hanging and throw our friendship/relationship in the trash bin just like that? I had enough of people leaving me for no apparent reason. It felt like I could form the littlest emotional attachment to any person in the world and still get hurt in the process. Friends, more than friends and the like.

What hurts the most is despite of all the pain that those people caused me, they have this special place in my heart that I don’t seem to find out how to remove. Rarely in our lives do we get what we wish for and you know you can’t hold on forever. For sometimes, it’s holding on that makes us weak. When you know you shouldn’t be missing that person who just took you for granted.

With that, perhaps we never really stop missing someone, even after you’ve moved on. You just simply get used to the fact that you’re missing them, changing the way you deal with their absence. Reverting to the real intention of this post, let’s proceed to the look itself.

With my earnest delight to relax due to exasperating school works, I opted to a more relaxed, hazy and casual look!

Striped Coverup from WAGW | Black Skater Skirt from SM Dept Store | Flower Crown from Jellybean

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