Love on the Weekend

**This post was supposedly posted back in early March. Errors on the blog so it was published just now. Blunder!!**

Annyeong! Yes, I know I’ve been inactive for a month or so. Supposedly post something about Valentine’s day last February but guess what, March is about to end after a few days. Must say, I’ve been busy these past few weeks. Walked past through our training and after a week, everyone’s in shock finding ourselves in a one week upskill training for sales! 

I may not have a great experience with outbound sales back then but I know and believe that God will surely take care of me. He knows how much I value and go after growth and stability. As He said in His word, He is the God who’s faithful in fulfilling His promises to us.

With this look, I must admit I don’t dress up that much as frequent as before. It depends on my mood and I avoid being in my over dressed self like what I used to before. Opted for a double denim but still keeping everything in control.

Nothing Else Matters

Annyeong! Must admit I purportedly posted this particular blog post a few days ago. My apologies, it has been a busy week at the offi ce. How are yoy guys doing?

In the past few weeks, I’ve noticed the very core of what the cliche-but-true, “There are people who will come into your life that would change you the way you are.” Since I got bullied many times before, I used to be excessively appreciative too much on people I hold dearly to the point of giving everything even though they came off not worthy of all the effort and whatnot.

A couple of weeks ago, a random guy approached me while I’m killing the time at the mall. But of course, I didn’t entertain him since I know how dangerous it is to meddle with strangers these days. And I’ve been there before. Trusting someone I just met who’s a total stranger which I thought was real but left in an instant so he turned out to be just a waste of time and effort.

Suffice to say, you really have to be careful and know the person first before pouring yourself out to avoid crying over spilled coffee. You can’t just go over meet someone for the first time and next thing you know, that person knows everything about you. Furthermore, we should always know who and who not to meddle yourselves with (at least not too quick, wait for the right time, just in case).

Fear Not


Oh hello busy bees! I’m pretty sure everyone is preoccupied with what happened in the last day of the year 2016 yesterday which most probably consists of preparing ourselves with media noche and pondering over our New Year’s resolution/s. So I decided to shed light on my cozy sweater weather mood by bringing out one of my lil’ bulky but comfy sweater and dance my way to comfort by pairing it with my denim shorts and trustee Nike Airforce 1 kicks. With regard to new year shenanigans, rather than a resolution, what I have is goals for 2017.
1. Constantly prayed that I would be able to be employed before 2016 ends. After months of going on job fairs, applying online  and etc, I was blessed to have one. Since I admit that I didn’t able to give my 100% best on my previous one, I promised God that I will give my utmost effort to do better this time with His grace and mercy, I believe I can do it.

2. Funny and cliche as it seem but I aspire to lose weight on 2017 by resisting the temptation of going zany over food most of the time and eating just a half cup of rice for the whole day. Not sure if I’ll go to the gym once or twice a week or I’ll just buy treadmill or elliptical bike and use it indoors. I love food but if I won’t do this now, when?

3. Went through a lot this year and it made me realize how much I need God in my life and how it pays to have a closer relationship with Him. So I’m aiming to be able to attend the Wired service in our church which is for professionals that I should have attended before. I’m also praying that God would lead me to the rightful ministry that He intends me to be in and be able to grow and be active there.

4. I have various things that I need to save money for. I admit I tend to be impulsive at times. And this coming 2017, I need to discipline myself not to be blinded in dwelling on too much luxuries but instead,keep in mind the things I’m ought to save for.

Overall, I’m hoping and been praying that 2017 will be a year of growth for me – career, spiritual, personal etc. May God give us the enough wisdom, strength, courage, motivation and favor for us to reach our goals in 2017. Fear not! – He is the Lord of all miracles, of hope and of peace. He is our superhero!

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Annyeong! It’s the last month of the year and few days from now, we’re gonna have the privilege to celebrate our Savior’s birth. And I just realized that it really pays to have a close and intimate relationship with God.

I’ve been praying a million times everyday for me to have a job again and promised God, this time I will give my 100% best and I’m constantly praying that I would receive it before 2016 ends. By His unchanging grace, I was blessed by a new one last Thursday and a couple of days ago, I already got hired officially.

In relation to the title of this post, it came to my thought in the past few weeks something about not rushing things when it comes to finding the right person you’re gonna spend the rest of your life with, which I didn’t decipher way back. I used to question God why am I used to be always the one without a partner in my group of friends back in college.

Recently, I convened the reality that you don’t just pour your entirety on whoever comes along just because you’ve been waiting for it to happen. Don’t settle for whoever comes along your way like 11:11 which some people wait each day believing if they mutter their wish on that time, it will happen.You really have to wait for the right person to come along. Someone who’s worth all your entirety and would love you beyond your imperfections.

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Hello lovelies! Apparently, my birth month is about to come to an end. I’m excited to celebrate the birthday of our Savior but I want the days not to come too quickly yet. Why? As some of you read my previous blog post, I’m currently looking for a job as of this moment and it’s been a couple of months since I started doing so.

As I seek God’s will, I’m constantly praying for me to be finally hired before this year 2016 ends. I know I’m still young so for sure there would be lots of opportunities heading my way. But then, I want to start 2017 right, being able to finally have a job where I can start anew. For me to be able to already start growing (and enjoying at the same time) and be able to make things right. I know God knows my heart and He knows how much I want to finally be hired already so suffice to say that He will make a way for me to get through this and be able to move forward in life. I believe that He’s preparing to something better for He can turn any situation into a blessing.

Anyhow, as for today’s look, it’s evident in the header photo that this is a backlog. And when I say backlog, this look is taken more than a year ago. Talk about backtrack, eh? This is one of the looks that I used to plan of not posting anymore but change of heart took place, I must say. This particular look is one of those days where I’m not in the mood to wear something too eye catching. Laidback self took over but I made sure it’s not too mundane as well. Just being me, I guess.

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Squeeze

Hi there lovelies! Before October bids goodbye, here I am, almost not posting anything again in le blog. Sorry, I’m currently looking for a job at the moment and I must say, I’m in the process of finding myself. Looking for that thing where I would do best. Most of us tend to take things for granted then have regrets of not taking something seriously later on.

I, myself have recently done that. That’s why I promised God and myself that I would make sure not to let any blessing come to waste again. I’ve been looking for a job this whole month of October but it felt like it’s been a couple of months! It’s a fine line between me, not being a homebody and me, aspiring to be somebody someday. I may not know yet what in specific I would do best. But one thing’s for sure: God have everything taken care of – He is the God of all miracles!

Few months ago, we went to Century City Mall to satisfy our tummies in Hole in the Wall but since we went there too early with our hungry tummies, the said food place is still closed (and since we still have other errands to attend to afterwards) so we decided to head over Le Petit Souffle which I must say is one of the most dreamy place I’ve ever been – not to mention their food is stellar. Try their Mac & Cheese!

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Here’s the complete set of what we ate at Le Petit Souffle:

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For this particular look, I must say it’s a lovechild of my obsession for florals and the color black! Keeping things muted and not too bright in the eyes.

3 Ways: Love in The Dark

Annyeong! Sorry for being inactive for a week or so. Been to diverse events since my favorite cousins is in town so I got preoccupied by their much awaited summer vacay. And so my tummy! My cheeks looks like a pair of burger buns right now, for crying out loud!

Aside from this, I’ve been to a rollercoaster of negativity with the couple of weeks of hiatus I’ve been to. Had a complicated issue with my wavemate in expense of defending a friend late last month and the feeling of not having the freedom and happiness that people of my age deserves to have due to having over-strict parents went up last week until now.

And it’s hitting me so deep. The fact that the only person you really can depend on is yourself. Which is immensely hard for me to take in. Someone who went through a lot of rejection in diverse sorts all throughout the years. Someone who’s been yearning for one thing all this time. To be loved as much as the love that she gives to everyone who she loves. To get the love that she deserves.

And I must admit it’s hard to push yourself to do best in everything when you feel like no one bothers to understand and be at your side at times like these. Because they don’t know and fathom how painful and heavy everything that you’ve been through/going through. And it’s agitating and heart wrenching to take in the fact that you don’t know what to do anymore but to pretend that everything’s okay and you always have to try hard to hold back those tears not to pour all over your face and force a smile – well, a fake one, all the time.

So help me, God. – Matthew 21:22*

To keep myself sane, I went through my closet and declare a rade on what pieces I can incorporate with my black knit see through top with faux leather short sleeves. And I opt to dole out short description on each conveying diverse sides of me in real life.

Chill Pill

When I’m on those days in which I’m not in the mood to dress up, I go for casual, toned down and laid back look. Comfort over style, well.. sometimes.

Plunge on Grunge

I’ve always or let’s say for so many years, I fell over heels with color black. Whether I’m in the mood to dress up or not. Especially nowadays. I’m not fond of wearing too much neon colors. Like when I’m wearing one piece of striking color, I keep the rest of the pieces muted.

The Kpop fangirl
Been a cray cray fangirl since early 2010. I can say that the my kpop fangirl side took over and has influenced my style on about 60-80% or more. But of course, I still keep up with the cons of thr tropical and excessively hot country I’m in.

All I Ask

Had earnest second thoughts of posting something like this. But I guess it’s insanely hard to keep it all to yourself. To set your expectations, this post contains my straightforward feelings so I want to say sorry in advance to y’all coz I may sound dramatic to those who cannot relate to this.

Upon graduating college last year, I had that burning desire and perseverance to find a job right away. It’s like I can’t handle seeing myself wasting time not to do anything for me to grow and flourish in a way that I’ll be a step closer to be someone I want myself to be. Having said that, I’ve been to heaps of online job applications, interviews, job fairs and whatnot. Couple of months of blood, sweat and tears after, I was able to land a job which I failed to pass the training as well as with the succeeding company I’ve been to. I must say that it’s been a very rough road for me since then. Instead of giving up and letting myself be a failure all the way, losing my job twice in just one year, I chose to trust on God’s love for me since for the record, He’s the ONLY ONE who never left my side no matter what happens.

Felt relieved and grateful when finally, I get to pass the training on the recent company I’m in right now. But sadly, I felt like no single person is happy for me. Or rather, they don’t bother asking how I was doing. My parents in specific. The people whom supposed to be insanely concerned and looking after my welfare. But since it always been like that and I felt like I can’t do anything about it, I left without a choice but to just disregard as it would open up too much negativity and insecurities.

What made all these burst out my chest is when my dad with all insensitivity told me that I’m too selfish blah blah. Even avowed it’s better for me not to have a job so I would get to stay at home all day. Not knowing how hard it is for me not to give up despite everything I went through.

All my life, I’ve been locked out with excessive restrictions. You can’t do this, you can’t do that. Now that I’m 22 and I’m working, don’t I have the right to have fun even just a bit? My mom even said if you want, you can go ahead and rent a condo. Which leads me to a decision to save money for it and gather all the courage to live independently. Imagine, hearing something like: “Will you stop crying? I’ll punch you!” straight from your dad??? Suffice to say that from this day on, I will do whatever it takes to be a better version of myself which will help me to get ready for the day that I’ll get to rent a condo and live my life the way a normal person of my age should be. Without those harsh restrictions despite my age and those remarks that makes me feel so little and incapable of attaining success someday.

Roll Deep

Annyeong! It’s been a long time since I was able to post here and my deep apologies for that. I’ve been busy this past few weeks and thank God that after all the effort that I convened to find a job was not wasted. I’m still in the same industry but this time, the account that I’m in this time is related to my course which is in sales. I may not have actual experience with sales yet since this is just the second company that I’m able to work with.

And of course, after all what happened to the previous one before, I made a vow to myself that I would put my best game this time. I would do everything for me to excel and be able to stay/last long with this company. Not so I can brag that I’m employed and whatnot. But for me to be able to prove myself that I can do better and I’m not a failure. No one is. It’s all in your hands if you will let yourself stay with just the same picture or go after your dreams and never stop aiming for continous growth. In order for me to do that, I came up with a game plan I have to firmly comply with.

1. Learn from your mistakes and don’t settle for anything less than you deserve. (For crying out loud!)

I actually mentioned this before on my preceding posts and to be honest, I wasn’t able to abide in it myself. Easier said than done, eh? But in able for you to move forward, you have to stop clinging on people and things that you wholeheartedly value but takes you for granted all the time, right? It’s not loyalty, it’s called breaking your own heart. Sorry if I sounded like I’m talking about something else. But you must eliminate everything that hinders you from growing. Focus more on the people who helps you go on the next step of the sucess ladder and stop wasting your time on those people who just kept on pulling you down, taking away the confidence you have in you.

2.Stay strong and never ever stop aiming higher, everytime.
Being able to win the euchre in life and overcome whatever challenges life throws at you, you must stay persistent in going after your dreams being fulfilled with a flambeau held high in your hand. Guzzle whatever new learnings that you are to acquire as you go on with your journey through life. Hard times may come when you least expect it and yes, we may find it unyieldingly hard to overcome at times. But always keep in mind your very reason as to why you hanker for self-betterment and trust that God will always be there to pick us up and direct us to the path where He know that will help us to pursue our dreams.

3. Nothing’s permanent but go for something that will last long.
When I started looking for a job upon finishing college, my mindset used to hanker for just having a job and not to waste time being unemployed. But one thing I learned with what happened to my previous job, I realized that I have to precipitate and do something for me to find not just a job, but a career. There’s a hefty difference between the two. Having a job would only give you the title of being employed and being able to buy whatever you want. Having a career would not only give you the potent to buy everything you want and the honor of being employed but it will also yield conspicious success and unsurpassed growth.

** As of the moment, I’m planning to boycott Lookbook next year. I will just post the looks I posted here on the blog before but haven’t able to post at Lookbook next month.

Fear Not

Oh hi! Some of you might be surprised as to why it seems like I’ve been active with my SNS lately. Well, let’s say something went wrong with my work and with that, I’ve been applying to various companies this week. Suffice to say, I feel like I’m in a roller-coaster of mixed emotions as of the moment. I’m trying to keep myself composed and positive as much as possible. Pulling off my best actress mask as much as I can. Although truth be told, it’s draining and tiring like zany. 😦 But what I always do is trust on God’s will and plan for my life.

Because I was so weak and frail back in the days when I was a rebel who just do whatever she felt like doing. And I’m pretty sure if I stayed that way today, I bet I already commited suicide. Growing up, with everything that I’ve been through in life, I can say that I changed in a way I don’t expect myself to be. With God as my refuge and secure fortress, together with what I learned from the hefty amount of pain, failures and rejection I’ve encountered in the past, I can say that I’m absolutely not the same as what I am before. I may not say that I’ve able to overcome my insecurities that the past has caused me but I can say, I’m stronger and wiser now. Not letting life’s big rocks stoop me down just like that.

I believe and proclaim that God would make a way for me to be hired with the best company and job wherein I would build a long-term career and would help me grow as a person. And later on, be able to pursue and fulfill my dreams and goals in life. For this look, it was taken at the National Museum a couple of weeks ago when I had a date with my brother-photographer. Wanting to channel that girl who finds comfort in art and being that girl of mysteries look, here’s what I wore:

Skirt & Shoes from H&M | Leggings from Claire’s

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