Love on the Weekend

**This post was supposedly posted back in early March. Errors on the blog so it was published just now. Blunder!!**

Annyeong! Yes, I know I’ve been inactive for a month or so. Supposedly post something about Valentine’s day last February but guess what, March is about to end after a few days. Must say, I’ve been busy these past few weeks. Walked past through our training and after a week, everyone’s in shock finding ourselves in a one week upskill training for sales! 

I may not have a great experience with outbound sales back then but I know and believe that God will surely take care of me. He knows how much I value and go after growth and stability. As He said in His word, He is the God who’s faithful in fulfilling His promises to us.

With this look, I must admit I don’t dress up that much as frequent as before. It depends on my mood and I avoid being in my over dressed self like what I used to before. Opted for a double denim but still keeping everything in control.

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Annyeong! Must admit I purportedly posted this particular blog post a few days ago. My apologies, it has been a busy week at the offi ce. How are yoy guys doing?

In the past few weeks, I’ve noticed the very core of what the cliche-but-true, “There are people who will come into your life that would change you the way you are.” Since I got bullied many times before, I used to be excessively appreciative too much on people I hold dearly to the point of giving everything even though they came off not worthy of all the effort and whatnot.

A couple of weeks ago, a random guy approached me while I’m killing the time at the mall. But of course, I didn’t entertain him since I know how dangerous it is to meddle with strangers these days. And I’ve been there before. Trusting someone I just met who’s a total stranger which I thought was real but left in an instant so he turned out to be just a waste of time and effort.

Suffice to say, you really have to be careful and know the person first before pouring yourself out to avoid crying over spilled coffee. You can’t just go over meet someone for the first time and next thing you know, that person knows everything about you. Furthermore, we should always know who and who not to meddle yourselves with (at least not too quick, wait for the right time, just in case).

Fear Not


Oh hello busy bees! I’m pretty sure everyone is preoccupied with what happened in the last day of the year 2016 yesterday which most probably consists of preparing ourselves with media noche and pondering over our New Year’s resolution/s. So I decided to shed light on my cozy sweater weather mood by bringing out one of my lil’ bulky but comfy sweater and dance my way to comfort by pairing it with my denim shorts and trustee Nike Airforce 1 kicks. With regard to new year shenanigans, rather than a resolution, what I have is goals for 2017.
1. Constantly prayed that I would be able to be employed before 2016 ends. After months of going on job fairs, applying online  and etc, I was blessed to have one. Since I admit that I didn’t able to give my 100% best on my previous one, I promised God that I will give my utmost effort to do better this time with His grace and mercy, I believe I can do it.

2. Funny and cliche as it seem but I aspire to lose weight on 2017 by resisting the temptation of going zany over food most of the time and eating just a half cup of rice for the whole day. Not sure if I’ll go to the gym once or twice a week or I’ll just buy treadmill or elliptical bike and use it indoors. I love food but if I won’t do this now, when?

3. Went through a lot this year and it made me realize how much I need God in my life and how it pays to have a closer relationship with Him. So I’m aiming to be able to attend the Wired service in our church which is for professionals that I should have attended before. I’m also praying that God would lead me to the rightful ministry that He intends me to be in and be able to grow and be active there.

4. I have various things that I need to save money for. I admit I tend to be impulsive at times. And this coming 2017, I need to discipline myself not to be blinded in dwelling on too much luxuries but instead,keep in mind the things I’m ought to save for.

Overall, I’m hoping and been praying that 2017 will be a year of growth for me – career, spiritual, personal etc. May God give us the enough wisdom, strength, courage, motivation and favor for us to reach our goals in 2017. Fear not! – He is the Lord of all miracles, of hope and of peace. He is our superhero!

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Annyeong! It’s the last month of the year and few days from now, we’re gonna have the privilege to celebrate our Savior’s birth. And I just realized that it really pays to have a close and intimate relationship with God.

I’ve been praying a million times everyday for me to have a job again and promised God, this time I will give my 100% best and I’m constantly praying that I would receive it before 2016 ends. By His unchanging grace, I was blessed by a new one last Thursday and a couple of days ago, I already got hired officially.

In relation to the title of this post, it came to my thought in the past few weeks something about not rushing things when it comes to finding the right person you’re gonna spend the rest of your life with, which I didn’t decipher way back. I used to question God why am I used to be always the one without a partner in my group of friends back in college.

Recently, I convened the reality that you don’t just pour your entirety on whoever comes along just because you’ve been waiting for it to happen. Don’t settle for whoever comes along your way like 11:11 which some people wait each day believing if they mutter their wish on that time, it will happen.You really have to wait for the right person to come along. Someone who’s worth all your entirety and would love you beyond your imperfections.

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Hello lovelies! Apparently, my birth month is about to come to an end. I’m excited to celebrate the birthday of our Savior but I want the days not to come too quickly yet. Why? As some of you read my previous blog post, I’m currently looking for a job as of this moment and it’s been a couple of months since I started doing so.

As I seek God’s will, I’m constantly praying for me to be finally hired before this year 2016 ends. I know I’m still young so for sure there would be lots of opportunities heading my way. But then, I want to start 2017 right, being able to finally have a job where I can start anew. For me to be able to already start growing (and enjoying at the same time) and be able to make things right. I know God knows my heart and He knows how much I want to finally be hired already so suffice to say that He will make a way for me to get through this and be able to move forward in life. I believe that He’s preparing to something better for He can turn any situation into a blessing.

Anyhow, as for today’s look, it’s evident in the header photo that this is a backlog. And when I say backlog, this look is taken more than a year ago. Talk about backtrack, eh? This is one of the looks that I used to plan of not posting anymore but change of heart took place, I must say. This particular look is one of those days where I’m not in the mood to wear something too eye catching. Laidback self took over but I made sure it’s not too mundane as well. Just being me, I guess.

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23rd

​Good day everyone! How formal can I get? Hahahaha! Anyway, I’m currently celebrating my 23rd year of existence. I must say that I’ve learned a lot of things this year. I made a lot of wrong decisions this year and I also realized a lot of things that happened because of my negligence in the past.

I may not be perfect but I’m constantly praying for God to guide me in every decision I’ll make in the coming days. I’m also praying that as I exert a lot of effort in applying/looking for a job, I would be able to finally get a job at least before the year 2016 ends. And I pray and believe that as I give my 100% best this time, I’ll be able to already grow consistently and gain new knowledge and experience along the way.

For today’s look, since I just turned 23 today (Omg, talk about adult-ing!), I decided to post what I wore on my cousin’s wedding last month at Fernwood Gardens with my family and my grandpa. As some of you might noticed, my usual color palette ranges from muted colors to pastel ones. This time, I opted to wear a white lace dress and black heels on that day. Not too over the top since I’m not one of the sponsors nor one of the special guests or whatnot. I also included some random photos that I adore during the said wedding.

And for some flair, I decided to come up with a street-ish boyish version of the look. I borrowed my brother’s jacket to conceal and salt away your attention to the factual size of my waist and convene a different feel on the overall look together with my “boy meets girl” cap I recently bought. Here it is!

Yes Girl

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Hello lovely earthlings! Recently went back to the office from a two-weeks leave due to health reasons. I’ve been taking medications like what I’ve disclosed on my recent blog post and I also went back to my doctor a couple of times (latest was yesterday) and I just opt to rake off 3 valuable lessons that he told me to bear in mind that everyone else can do so as well.

1. Never compare yourself to people – especially to someone who’s lacking same as what you do. To those you look up to, you can use them as an inspiration to do better.

2.Don’t set your hopes too high and expect yourself to reach your goals right away. Great things take time.

3. Don’t dwell on the past anymore because it will just hinder you from growing and it won’t take you anywhere.

And for today’s look, to cinch that waist of mine that went bigger as my love for food grew bigger as well, I opt to wear a long outerwear to look slim paired with denim shorts to achieve the denim on denim trend which I’m fond of nowadays.

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Don’t Matter

Oh hello! Many things happened in the past month and thank God I got regularized from my recent work. Although I’m still in the midst of improvement and I still commit mistakes a million times. Which opened my eyes to the realization that you really can’t fathom if the friend/s you’re with is real or not not until you see how they treat you in times of failure and despair. If they still treat you the same way they do when need something from you, then you’re blessed to have them in your life because they’re real.

Suffice to say that it’s hard for me to pinpoint as to who I consider as my bestfriend nowadays. Had some whom I’ve been very close for quite sometime but ended up as either just one of my acquaintances or worst, some even grew distant due to some irrelevant reason of theirs. Have people who I became friends from the start (or so I thought, sadly..) but next thing I know, they tend to be absurdly bipolar being too kind to me at times then will turn to my number one hater in just a snap.

Sometimes I just don’t know who to trust. That’s why I tend to create a wall between me and some people (to my crush, even, would you believe??!). It’s like I’m too afraid to open myself to them due to the fear of getting attached to them too much and might end up getting hurt and left alone again. I guess you really can’t force yourself to be part of someone’s life if they intentionally not let you be part of it.

All I Ask

Had earnest second thoughts of posting something like this. But I guess it’s insanely hard to keep it all to yourself. To set your expectations, this post contains my straightforward feelings so I want to say sorry in advance to y’all coz I may sound dramatic to those who cannot relate to this.

Upon graduating college last year, I had that burning desire and perseverance to find a job right away. It’s like I can’t handle seeing myself wasting time not to do anything for me to grow and flourish in a way that I’ll be a step closer to be someone I want myself to be. Having said that, I’ve been to heaps of online job applications, interviews, job fairs and whatnot. Couple of months of blood, sweat and tears after, I was able to land a job which I failed to pass the training as well as with the succeeding company I’ve been to. I must say that it’s been a very rough road for me since then. Instead of giving up and letting myself be a failure all the way, losing my job twice in just one year, I chose to trust on God’s love for me since for the record, He’s the ONLY ONE who never left my side no matter what happens.

Felt relieved and grateful when finally, I get to pass the training on the recent company I’m in right now. But sadly, I felt like no single person is happy for me. Or rather, they don’t bother asking how I was doing. My parents in specific. The people whom supposed to be insanely concerned and looking after my welfare. But since it always been like that and I felt like I can’t do anything about it, I left without a choice but to just disregard as it would open up too much negativity and insecurities.

What made all these burst out my chest is when my dad with all insensitivity told me that I’m too selfish blah blah. Even avowed it’s better for me not to have a job so I would get to stay at home all day. Not knowing how hard it is for me not to give up despite everything I went through.

All my life, I’ve been locked out with excessive restrictions. You can’t do this, you can’t do that. Now that I’m 22 and I’m working, don’t I have the right to have fun even just a bit? My mom even said if you want, you can go ahead and rent a condo. Which leads me to a decision to save money for it and gather all the courage to live independently. Imagine, hearing something like: “Will you stop crying? I’ll punch you!” straight from your dad??? Suffice to say that from this day on, I will do whatever it takes to be a better version of myself which will help me to get ready for the day that I’ll get to rent a condo and live my life the way a normal person of my age should be. Without those harsh restrictions despite my age and those remarks that makes me feel so little and incapable of attaining success someday.

#AllyTurns22

Oh hi lovely people! Funny as it seems, it’s actually friday the 13th today, it’s payday and yeah, it’s my birthday, as well. And so, I’m not that sure if we can go somewhere to eat. We’re actually planning to paint the town red at Sambo Kojin but then, I bet there are lots of people in there. So I think we’re gonna buy food outside and celebrate for the meantime at home. And Sambo Kojin would most probably be on the 15th after church. And as for my officemates, well.. perhaps, I will buy a giant pizza for everyone to be zany of and treat my closest friend/s somewhere.

Anyhow, as I grow a year older today, I came to a steadfast decision to abide with an action plan towards self betterment. Here’s some of it:

Now that I’m 22, I will.. focus and divert my attention things and people that will help and motivate me to put my best foot forward in everything I will do.

Now that I’m 22, I will.. love myself more and no matter how hard it may be, I will move forward and let go of those people who didn’t even hesitate to leave me behind.

Now that I’m 22, I will.. make sure to be adnascent and not complascent with what I have right now and vouch for more blessings and miracles to take place in my life as I go further.

On the contrary..

Now that I’m 22, I will not.. let myself be stuck on things that won’t contribute on self growth and people who don’t intend to stay long and came just to filter negativity on my heart.

Now that I’m 22, I will not.. allow fear take over me in times of despair but trust that God will never leave me whatever happens.

Now that I’m 22, I will not.. waste my time forcing myself for people to value me as much as I value them. If you don’t want me in your life, and so be it. I will never be that girl who will force you to stay over and over again and beg for your attention like a lame dog.

Having said these, I really hope and pray this year will be a year of continuous learning, growth and blessings will overflow as I turn a year older and the fact that I’m not a teenager anymore, for real. Yeah right. 🙂