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Hi there lovelies! Before October bids goodbye, here I am, almost not posting anything again in le blog. Sorry, I’m currently looking for a job at the moment and I must say, I’m in the process of finding myself. Looking for that thing where I would do best. Most of us tend to take things for granted then have regrets of not taking something seriously later on.

I, myself have recently done that. That’s why I promised God and myself that I would make sure not to let any blessing come to waste again. I’ve been looking for a job this whole month of October but it felt like it’s been a couple of months! It’s a fine line between me, not being a homebody and me, aspiring to be somebody someday. I may not know yet what in specific I would do best. But one thing’s for sure: God have everything taken care of – He is the God of all miracles!

Few months ago, we went to Century City Mall to satisfy our tummies in Hole in the Wall but since we went there too early with our hungry tummies, the said food place is still closed (and since we still have other errands to attend to afterwards) so we decided to head over Le Petit Souffle which I must say is one of the most dreamy place I’ve ever been – not to mention their food is stellar. Try their Mac & Cheese!

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Here’s the complete set of what we ate at Le Petit Souffle:

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For this particular look, I must say it’s a lovechild of my obsession for florals and the color black! Keeping things muted and not too bright in the eyes.

Show Me Your Ways

Annyeong! It’s like a couple of weeks since I updated this blog of mine and I really did notice that I’m starting to be like less active on all my accounts in SNS compared to how I usually do before back when I was a student like some of you are. I also realized recently that it seems like I don’t have the time to go out & chill anymore as much as I did before I started working. It’s been a see-saw-in-the-playground for me. I miss my carefree schedule before when I have all the time in the world to go to whatever place I wish to go to and eat wherever my tummy tells me to go zany with. But then, on the contrary, I also love the fulfillment I get every payday and I get to earn money by myself and being able to buy things that I want with my own money and treat my family is like eating a whole ice cream cake or Mr. Pizza’s Eggta all by myself. (Now, I’m hungry! Oh no!).

Suffice to say, whenever I get to go out during my rest days is like a trip to South Korea for me. (Well, almost.. can someone fulfill my Kpop fangirl dream now? Aigoo!~ *aegyo voice on*) Seriously speaking, I’ve been planning to go on an ultimate cheat day, splurging on eating on our guilty pleasure with my brother. And go on a museum visit and invade an unli shabu shabu on one day, as well. Which we are by the the end of this week. *twinkling eyes*

As for the look I pulled off on this particular look, I opt for a balance plate of my Kpop antics, and fixation for dark colors without being too androgynous. Which is why Hello Kitty decided to drop by. It’s always been a fact for me clinging into edgy staples and pieces which sheds light into my Kpop fangirl side. But then, I always make it a point to dab my finger on the feminine side of me from time to time to balance everything.

Hello Kitty tee, Skirt, Stockings & Shoes all from H&M

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Annyeong! How are you all doing? I really made sure that I get to post this week since I already started working and it’s only during the weekends that I would get to rest, chill and etc. But then, of course, if you love something (or someone.. err.. *covers face*), you would really make time for it no matter how busy you can be, right? Otherwise, it’s an indication that it’s either, it’s not your priority or you just don’t love it that much. How double meaning can that get? Uh, whatever!

Speaking of priorities, I know I’ve already avowed in one of my previous posts as to what are my goals and plans of partaking in the future. But then, as I convened my thoughts these past few days, I decipher what I really want to pursue in life. Although, truth be told, it’s not just one, not just two, but three! Fashion which is immensely obvious where my heart is. It’s either I would take various short courses at Fashion Institute of the Philippines in Ortigas, take Fashion Design & Merchandising at De La Salle – College of Saint Benilde which is I think is a 4-year course or take a 1 year or 4 year Fashion Design & Marketing course at School of Fashion & The Arts (Although it’s far from our house) which I’m planning to take next year, perhaps. Whatever my final choice of course & school I may be.

Another is Dance which I started being fixated with since I was a kid. Although I want to take a preliminary workshop first before taking a formal course if ever I’ll push it through. Why? I stopped dancing for about 4 or 5 years already due to my asthma which I was healed from for a long time. I guess I just didn’t push myself too much to it these days. And I would not deny that among the three, dance is my least priority of pursuing. I don’t know why. Maybe I would pursue it if I still can after 4 or 5 years?

Last but my number one priority of them all, Law. I never been on the top of the class in my elementary and high school days. I was the happy-go-lucky-rebellious-type back then. Not until, to my surprise, when we started having law subjects back in my last two years in college, I was blessed to be in the top 1-3 consistently. I must say that I didn’t strive hard just because of the joy of being recognized as one of the top law students in class but it’s predominantly because law has captured my heart and I felt pure bliss in studying it. Having said that, it was a firm decision of mine to pursue law after 2 or 3 years at either UP, San Beda or UST.

Above all these, I want to go after my own dreams with my own money. My parents can pay for my tuition etc, yes. But I think it’s far more fulfilling if you get to go after your life goals and dreams with your hard-earned money, right? It’s like you prove those people who don’t believe in you wrong. As for my case, I can prove those bullies (with many ‘S’, BULLIESSSS!) who made me think twice (even thrice and so) to believe in myself that I may be some kind of dirt to them before but I can smile to them from ear to ear in the near future and prove them wrong of wasting their precious time on belittling me.

As to my look for today, I took the risk of wearing a floral maxi dress which I don’t usually wear yet in a normal setting. But since I’m currently working now and I’m no longer a student, I decided to pull off a bit mature look than what I usually do. Of course, with my fixation on florals saying hello.. again.

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Leather jacket from Next | Boots from SAX | Bowler hat from H&M

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Stronger Than You Know

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Hello there! How are you guys doing? Pat on the back, I’m staying true to my goal of making up for the late posts I’ve convened recently.

Anyhow, dealing with the diverse changes that’s been taking place in my life now (I’ve mentioned it on my previous posts) and after I’ve internalized and had the time to process things that happened before, it made me realize how important it is to be wise and careful with the people you’re gonna invest into and who you must disregard and let go.

Like for instance, would you go for a friend who’s with you everyday but when trial comes or when you need someone to help you process your thoughts and weigh things that bother you, you can’t count on her/him? Or would you rather go with someone you don’t get to meet and be with everyday/frequently but you can always (like, always!) count on them whenever you need someone to talk to and they can always help you with anything? Truth be told, I would go with the latter. I have friends like that who I seldom meet but with just one click, they always put up with anything under the sun.

On the other hand, would you opt for a guy/girl who let’s say, excels on the same field of study as yours and you guys have the same fixation on many things but seems immature on certain things and doesn’t know yet what it’s like to be in a relationship and how to treat girls/guys right? Or would you go for someone who’s not fond of some of the things that you enjoy and used to doing (for example, he’s not fond of hanging out just as you do) and you sometimes find him/her too matured than you are right now but he/she helps you how to overcome those doubts and insecurities you have inside you, he/she knows how to handle relationships and he/she brings out the best in you?

My point is, we have to ascertain who are the ones who deserve to stay in our lives and the ones who don’t even deserve even an inch of us. Who to keep and who to discard before you develop an incredible attachment on someone and it’s too late to back out. Comprehending this after 21 years of living here on earth screams “Don’t be so shallow and stupid! Use your brain!” Suffice to say, we should act according on what we know rather than on what we feel. Don’t let your emotions manipulate your decisions wholly. Make sure you don’t let anyone take you for granted like I did before.

Upon speaking of maturity, it’s very timely that I’m wearing an vintage-y statement shirt like this. Teehee! πŸ˜‰ And this particular look shows my present color palette nowadays which to be honest, I think will somehow change as I enter the business world and bid farewell to my school uniform. Aww! *mixed emotions*

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Bowler Hat & Ribbon Cuff from H&M | Statement Shirt from Artwork | Watch from Swatch

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Run On Love

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Oh hello! After all the lazy hazy mood or festive shenanigans we revel ourselves into, classes & work resumed. But due to the Pope’s visit here in the Philippines, all of us enjoyed an extended super long vacay. As for me, since I only have classes during MWF, I had a 6-day vacay. And in the past few days, the harsh reality came crashing in front of me – again.

I would admit that I tend to be pasaway and you know the feeling when the clichΓ© “the truth hurts” and “the truth will set you free” slaps you right in the face to wake you up from something you can’t escape from. Some of us, or should I say, most of us refuse to face the reality and tend to fool ourselves with what we choose to believe which is basically a lie. Truth be told, I’ve been like that for a long time just recently.
So I ended up finding it hard even more to let go of people who doesn’t even deserve to be an issue in my life. That the ones who I invest too much effort, feelings & time are the same people who don’t even exert effort & take me seriously just like how I do to them. If some of you regularly read my blog posts, I know I already have heaps of posts about moving on & stuff. It’s not that easy to move on and they say there’s no formula for that.

But of course, if there’s a will, there’s a way. After all, it’s not my loss. It’s his. Ensuing on with today’s look, as we grow up, we tend to change our style preference, right? As for me, at first, I prefer the print on print formula and leggings that in my opinion now is too mainstream already. I go for the basic ones and dark hues which goes something like this:

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Bowler Hat & Skirt from H&M | Tights from Claire’s | Boots from Doc Martens

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Change Your Ticket

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Annyeong! Today’s the end of 2014 & apparently the start of another year, (2015) which commonly most of us desire to have their fair share of aspiring to start anew and be the better version of ourselves. But very seldom that we stay true, consistently stick and live by those so-called resolution/s we engage themselves with.
New year’s resolution as most of us perceive it. When you really, really, (like really!) want a big change (in a good way, obviously) to take place in your everyday life, then do something about it. Because no one can ever help you change but yourself.
And in order for you to do that successfully, you have to think first of all your life goals (be distinct), formulate ways on how you can be able to pursue those & stick with it – with all your heart, soul & mind! What’s the sense of coming up with life goals if you’ll just disregard it afterwards? You’re just making fool out of yourself & end up getting worst than ever.

As for me, I’m not that serious with goals, resolutions and stuff before. But of course, as we grow up, we get to learn new things from experience & other people. And worst, from pain. So as 2015 starts, I don’t wanna ever be in the place wherein I always have to run after people just for them to stay with me. If you don’t have plans of staying, then so be it. I’m not anybody’s toy or pet dog that you can ignore and leave in the pedestal whenever you want. Hey, I’m human. I have feelings too. Having said that, I decided to bid farewell to 2014 and to old habits/ways and people that I utterly value but don’t deserve it, as well. Yes it’s hard. But with God, I know I can do anything. And so, goodbye 2014 & to the people I love but don’t deserve my time, effort & tears. Annyeong, 2015!

With this, as seen on my facebook account, I had my first photoshoot for 2015 & here’s the outcome:

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Checkered Button down from GUESS? | Bowler Hat from H&M | Tank Top from Zara | Tutu Skirt from Forever 21 | Boots from SAX

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I Like You

Annyeong! How are you guys doing? I had my birthday celebrated a couple of days ago. And we chose to eat dinner at Yakimix. At first, the latter had a constant dispute with Vikings Luxury Buffet. But the former reigned and of course, it made our tummies zany and came home with a dozen of donuts to munch the next day. Apparently, truth be told, I had my pre-birthday celebration last November 8 with my favorite auntie & brother where we also witnessed the ever fluffy, marshmallow-like, super adorbs Baymax courtesy of Big Hero 6 at Powerplant Cinemas, had two doses of TCB during the day and took the 12-inch Mighty Ton burger & huge milkshake, The Milky Way at The Porch by Casa Verde.

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On the other hand, turning 21 was like a total different story for me. (OMG! I feel old already! *hides face*) Late at night, when we reached home, I came up with divergent realizations as to what the past year taught me. In my relationships with people, in particular. Maybe some of you might find me sensitive or whatsoever. (some of you who follows & reads my posts everytime/most of the time, if there’s any) But I’m just expressing my thoughts & feelings. Nothing’s wrong with staying true to ourselves, right? That’s better rather than pretending something you’re not.

In relation to that, facing and accepting the truth is better than making yourself believe on things that you want to perceive as the truth but you know there were all just lies. Like for example, you’re making yourself believe that someone you love will love you back someday. But the truth is, you know that person won’t. To be blunt with you, I experienced that just recently. If some of you read my previous posts you’ll understand well what I’ve been through with a certain guy (somehow). Having said that, it led me to another realization that we should not force things to happen that are not meant to be. Or else, reality will come & slap you right in the face with the truth. One thing I learned with all the excessive heartbreaks that I’ve encountered in the past (especially with a certain guy) is that we should not put our guards down way too fast & trust people just like that. For almost everything in this world is temporary. Including people and their feelings. A lot of guys out there may come into your life and make you feel you’re special to them. But only one of them, in the right time, are meant to stay in your life forever. So we should not make decisions just like that without thinking of the million possibilities that may happen afterwards. Expectations might kill you alive.

Personally, I’ve encountered those A LOT. People letting me down after all I’ve done for them and stuff. Oh please, I had too much. Then it hit me, why would I let me lose myself trying to hold on to people who don’t even care nor afraid of losing me? Reality taught me that, by the way. So we should open our eyes with what’s real rather than drowning ourselves with things that we just want to believe in. On the other hand, being a K-pop fangirl for the past few years, I must say, it translates on what I opt to wear. After all, as the cliche puts it, we are what we wear, isn’t?

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Bowler Hat from H&M | Watch from SwatchΒ 

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Ain’t Been Done

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So how’s your semester break going? As for me, well, to be blunt, I find all what’s happening these days overwhelming and uhmm.. AHH! Can’t seem to translate it into words. For the record, I unintentionally opened up to my mom & aunt about my unipolar/clinical depression which was utterly unplanned. It just came out natural. Well, I guess the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks indeed.
Just recently, the friend who I mentioned in my prior post/s that been my crying shoulder for quite sometime then suddenly left me alone without any valid reason or any single explanation just sent me message which brought me to tears – again. Saying she had life issues in the past that she chose not to share to anyone. And it just hit me, why do I easily trust people just as they find it hard to trust me? Though I respect other people’s decisions but there are just people who you just feel like it’s utterly too much for you to trust them again the way you did before. It’s like there’s this miniature wall built that’s stopping you to trust them again.

As what they say, if you love something/someone, set it free. If it comes back, it’s yours. If it does not come back, it was never meant to be. Ensuing with this look, well, as the weather here in MNL seems bipolar, so is me!

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Black Bowler hat from H&M | Shoes from SM GTW

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