That’s What I Like

Annyeong! Yes, it’s quite a long time since I was able to post something here. Mianhae!~ Well, I must say I’m doing fine with my current work. What I’ve been praying for is for me to have a favorable schedule and performance all throughout. Having shifting schedule is okay, all I’m praying is a favorable one. Enough for me to still be able to bond with my cousins from abroad (who came for a couple of months long for vacay) even on weekdays.

And I must admit that I still feel gloomy most of the time, thinking that until now, the right guy still hasn’t come yet. Last month and so, the guy who I used to taught I have a special connection with, tested the waters again and thought he can still stir up something between us. Of course, I didn’t take it seriously because I know for a fact that he’s just looking for someone to play with again. I mean, grow up. When will you learn to take someone seriously? 
As to why I don’t want to grow fond of someone too much easily not unless they get to prove something. Take it from me who already experienced being the one who’s pursuing someone instead of the one being pursued. I just hope and pray that God would already lead me to that someone that will prove to me that not all guys are alike. 

23rd

​Good day everyone! How formal can I get? Hahahaha! Anyway, I’m currently celebrating my 23rd year of existence. I must say that I’ve learned a lot of things this year. I made a lot of wrong decisions this year and I also realized a lot of things that happened because of my negligence in the past.

I may not be perfect but I’m constantly praying for God to guide me in every decision I’ll make in the coming days. I’m also praying that as I exert a lot of effort in applying/looking for a job, I would be able to finally get a job at least before the year 2016 ends. And I pray and believe that as I give my 100% best this time, I’ll be able to already grow consistently and gain new knowledge and experience along the way.

For today’s look, since I just turned 23 today (Omg, talk about adult-ing!), I decided to post what I wore on my cousin’s wedding last month at Fernwood Gardens with my family and my grandpa. As some of you might noticed, my usual color palette ranges from muted colors to pastel ones. This time, I opted to wear a white lace dress and black heels on that day. Not too over the top since I’m not one of the sponsors nor one of the special guests or whatnot. I also included some random photos that I adore during the said wedding.

And for some flair, I decided to come up with a street-ish boyish version of the look. I borrowed my brother’s jacket to conceal and salt away your attention to the factual size of my waist and convene a different feel on the overall look together with my “boy meets girl” cap I recently bought. Here it is!

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Hi there lovelies! Before October bids goodbye, here I am, almost not posting anything again in le blog. Sorry, I’m currently looking for a job at the moment and I must say, I’m in the process of finding myself. Looking for that thing where I would do best. Most of us tend to take things for granted then have regrets of not taking something seriously later on.

I, myself have recently done that. That’s why I promised God and myself that I would make sure not to let any blessing come to waste again. I’ve been looking for a job this whole month of October but it felt like it’s been a couple of months! It’s a fine line between me, not being a homebody and me, aspiring to be somebody someday. I may not know yet what in specific I would do best. But one thing’s for sure: God have everything taken care of – He is the God of all miracles!

Few months ago, we went to Century City Mall to satisfy our tummies in Hole in the Wall but since we went there too early with our hungry tummies, the said food place is still closed (and since we still have other errands to attend to afterwards) so we decided to head over Le Petit Souffle which I must say is one of the most dreamy place I’ve ever been – not to mention their food is stellar. Try their Mac & Cheese!

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Here’s the complete set of what we ate at Le Petit Souffle:

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For this particular look, I must say it’s a lovechild of my obsession for florals and the color black! Keeping things muted and not too bright in the eyes.

3 Ways: Love in The Dark

Annyeong! Sorry for being inactive for a week or so. Been to diverse events since my favorite cousins is in town so I got preoccupied by their much awaited summer vacay. And so my tummy! My cheeks looks like a pair of burger buns right now, for crying out loud!

Aside from this, I’ve been to a rollercoaster of negativity with the couple of weeks of hiatus I’ve been to. Had a complicated issue with my wavemate in expense of defending a friend late last month and the feeling of not having the freedom and happiness that people of my age deserves to have due to having over-strict parents went up last week until now.

And it’s hitting me so deep. The fact that the only person you really can depend on is yourself. Which is immensely hard for me to take in. Someone who went through a lot of rejection in diverse sorts all throughout the years. Someone who’s been yearning for one thing all this time. To be loved as much as the love that she gives to everyone who she loves. To get the love that she deserves.

And I must admit it’s hard to push yourself to do best in everything when you feel like no one bothers to understand and be at your side at times like these. Because they don’t know and fathom how painful and heavy everything that you’ve been through/going through. And it’s agitating and heart wrenching to take in the fact that you don’t know what to do anymore but to pretend that everything’s okay and you always have to try hard to hold back those tears not to pour all over your face and force a smile – well, a fake one, all the time.

So help me, God. – Matthew 21:22*

To keep myself sane, I went through my closet and declare a rade on what pieces I can incorporate with my black knit see through top with faux leather short sleeves. And I opt to dole out short description on each conveying diverse sides of me in real life.

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When I’m on those days in which I’m not in the mood to dress up, I go for casual, toned down and laid back look. Comfort over style, well.. sometimes.

Plunge on Grunge

I’ve always or let’s say for so many years, I fell over heels with color black. Whether I’m in the mood to dress up or not. Especially nowadays. I’m not fond of wearing too much neon colors. Like when I’m wearing one piece of striking color, I keep the rest of the pieces muted.

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Been a cray cray fangirl since early 2010. I can say that the my kpop fangirl side took over and has influenced my style on about 60-80% or more. But of course, I still keep up with the cons of thr tropical and excessively hot country I’m in.

Backtrack

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I get the feeling that some people think that being fashionable is some kind of gene mutuation – and it’s either you have it or you don’t, as if the talent for pairing flared trousers with platform heels and a peasant style, pussy-bow blouse is inborn. I perceive fashion from a different point of view, I seized upon a fitting metaphor: fashion is a language.

If so, then that means people will speak it with different degrees of fluency. Some of us are fluent than others that’s why they don’t just follow trends, they make ’em. Some of us do follow trends but make sure to rock it in a way that others can’t. So if you’ve always wanted to play fashion, you should fathom that it’s something that can be learned, something you can excel at if you put in the requisite time and effort.

With that, as 2016 approaches, I decided to post all those looks I didn’t have the ample time to convene in the blog last year. Pardon, the working girl, eh? And I must say, I used my black skater skirt and knee high socks way too much last year. Well of course, take note of the black hair I used to have before! The marks of backlogs? Oops, my bad! 😛

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I think I still have few backlogs left on the pc so I guess I’ll just follow those up in between blog posts, yes?

Spoilers, anyone? For one of the two look posts that I will post next week is actually a backlog, as well. It’s back in the days when I haven’t put red streaks on my hair. (although it’s not much of a striking one, but I’m planning to soon!) Stay tuned, lovelies!

Fear Not

Oh hi! Some of you might be surprised as to why it seems like I’ve been active with my SNS lately. Well, let’s say something went wrong with my work and with that, I’ve been applying to various companies this week. Suffice to say, I feel like I’m in a roller-coaster of mixed emotions as of the moment. I’m trying to keep myself composed and positive as much as possible. Pulling off my best actress mask as much as I can. Although truth be told, it’s draining and tiring like zany. 😦 But what I always do is trust on God’s will and plan for my life.

Because I was so weak and frail back in the days when I was a rebel who just do whatever she felt like doing. And I’m pretty sure if I stayed that way today, I bet I already commited suicide. Growing up, with everything that I’ve been through in life, I can say that I changed in a way I don’t expect myself to be. With God as my refuge and secure fortress, together with what I learned from the hefty amount of pain, failures and rejection I’ve encountered in the past, I can say that I’m absolutely not the same as what I am before. I may not say that I’ve able to overcome my insecurities that the past has caused me but I can say, I’m stronger and wiser now. Not letting life’s big rocks stoop me down just like that.

I believe and proclaim that God would make a way for me to be hired with the best company and job wherein I would build a long-term career and would help me grow as a person. And later on, be able to pursue and fulfill my dreams and goals in life. For this look, it was taken at the National Museum a couple of weeks ago when I had a date with my brother-photographer. Wanting to channel that girl who finds comfort in art and being that girl of mysteries look, here’s what I wore:

Skirt & Shoes from H&M | Leggings from Claire’s

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Brave

Howdy people! It’s been only like a week since I posted but it feels like my recent post was like a couple of weeks or so already. Why? Well, let’s put it this way. God has been good to me this past week that had past. Why again? I’ve got multiple job offers but scrapped it over a recent one which is accessible and near our house. What is ironic in it was out of all the job applications/interviews and job fairs I’ve had/been, truth be told, I seem to avoid BPO companies (also with agencies, insurance companies and such) all the time since if ever, I would be working usually in the night time which would be predominantly contrary to my usual sleeping routine wherein I usually sleep at around 11pm or so then wake up at 6:30am for our morning walk in our subdivision. Which would make me (pretty much!) a night owl right?

It started when I attended the job fair at SM Megamall earlier part of a couple of weeks ago which I think is like Wednesday. Since it was organized by WorkAbroad.ph, most of the booths caters to aspiring applicants who’s looking for a job abroad. With that, I only applied to 5 or 6 booths and decided to leave the venue upon having my last round of beating the bushes and checking every booth not until a girl from a certain BPO company approached and asked me if I’m interested and said if I don’t want to be in the night shift, they also offer day shift and so I tried. When we had our group initial interview, I passed which landed to me, passing the rest of the recruitment process later on (Although it’s on the night shift since it turned out, day shift agents are for the experienced ones, after all). But then, I was assigned at the Ortigas branch of the said BPO company. And so, I tried to apply with another company and passed again. This time, I got assigned at Shaw Boulevard site which is a bit far more than the previous one.

Furthermore, my mom told me to try applying for another company with the same industry which is much accessible and near our place since it’s dangerous and pretty much risky going home late at night after work, especially for a girl like me. Finally, I found one around Quezon City (Eton Centris) and got hired just recently. With that, my life would officially change with regards to my transition from student into a working one next week. With that, I realized that I have to continue not chasing and running after people who don’t value me as much as I value them anymore. I know I’ told myself to do so many times before but I’m a grown up now and I convened with the fact that people who don’t/can’t even make time for you despite their busy schedule just like I do with them don’t deserve your time, effort and love.

If you really want me to be in your life, go out of your way and prove it to me. If you don’t, why would I force you to stay? I’ve had enough of people who’s just good with feeding you with sweet words. If you have to force yourself to be in the lives of people you hold dear so much but they end up ignoring you, why would you fight for that person? This applies to my relationships in general, by the way. With my 21 years of existence, I’ve encountered this many times before. So, as I enter the business world, I want to leave everything that belongs to the past and those people who just kept on making me doubt on myself behind which hinders me from loving myself and growing, as well. You can’t just come and go in my life whenever you want and just talk to me when you’re just bored and got nothing to do. No one deserves to be just anyone’s past time, second option or worst, back up plan. Sometimes, even if it hurts, you have to be brave enough to move forward with or without the people you value the most but don’t value you as much. Even those who promised that you’ll always have each other when everything else is gone but ended up leaving you in the pedestal.

With regards to my look post for today, I opted for monochromatic pieces and paired it with my favorite denim jacket. Summer ended last month so cover-ups would be like no biggie these days. And with marsala being Pantone’s color of the year, I went for marsala-colored socks which added to that laidback feel of my outfit. I hope you guys like it!

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Not In That Way

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Annyeong! Sorry for being inactive for the past month. School works piled up, diverse requirements jammed and stress get the best of me. And uhh, well, my heart’s disposition is.. I don’t know how to put this. But I must admit, I’m finally beginning to push myself not to be too selfless when it comes to love and start thinking what do I really deserve.
Especially stop wasting my time and feelings for the wrong person. That’s why I’m opening my heart to others but still be wise and very careful at the same time. There’s this guy I recently met. At first, I was like: “Finally!” But and BUT, I don’t wanna assume anything yet. Too early for that. And of course, the past (almost) 2 years I became close minded and blinded with the wrong guy has taught me a lot.
Having said that, I promise myself not to let myself fall into the wrong person that will stir up trouble and painful conundrum into my heart later on again. Therefore, I shouldn’t let myself get attached to that guy I just met recently – yet. After all, I’m not yet certain if he likes me or he just want the both of us to be friends and just friends. Just gotta guard my heart and take it slow. If it’s meant to be, God will make a way for us to end up being together. If not, wag naman sana! Just kidding! Jesus, take the wheel! smile emoticon

Let’s carry on with my look for the day. To be blunt, this is apparently a back log. And obviously, I’m sticking out my nose with an all black ensemble, keeping it clean and not too over the top.

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Ain’t Been Done

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So how’s your semester break going? As for me, well, to be blunt, I find all what’s happening these days overwhelming and uhmm.. AHH! Can’t seem to translate it into words. For the record, I unintentionally opened up to my mom & aunt about my unipolar/clinical depression which was utterly unplanned. It just came out natural. Well, I guess the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks indeed.
Just recently, the friend who I mentioned in my prior post/s that been my crying shoulder for quite sometime then suddenly left me alone without any valid reason or any single explanation just sent me message which brought me to tears – again. Saying she had life issues in the past that she chose not to share to anyone. And it just hit me, why do I easily trust people just as they find it hard to trust me? Though I respect other people’s decisions but there are just people who you just feel like it’s utterly too much for you to trust them again the way you did before. It’s like there’s this miniature wall built that’s stopping you to trust them again.

As what they say, if you love something/someone, set it free. If it comes back, it’s yours. If it does not come back, it was never meant to be. Ensuing with this look, well, as the weather here in MNL seems bipolar, so is me!

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Black Bowler hat from H&M | Shoes from SM GTW

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Like A Black Widow Baby

Here we go with my overdue look post. My deep apologies with my consecutive delinquency. It’s just that I find it a bit hard to blog these days. Aside from my jam packed schedule due to my clingy fourth year stress bites, I’m feeling exasperatingly uninspired and heavy handed these days. With all the stress that I’m dealing right now and some personal things. But then, I promise I will do my best to avoid this tardiness syndrome I’m getting into. I just don’t wanna vent it too much on public. Those of you who have read/will read my preceding look posts, I bet you will notice my bereaved thoughts and statements here and there, don’t you?

Anyway, those who follow my lookbook/fashion venture here in my dearest blog (if there’s any) will apprehend that I’m more of an edgy one than being the i-love-pink-to-the-moon-and-back type. Though I’m not saying that I despise playing with colors. If you’ll see my next look post, you’ll ascertain well what I meant. But there are those days that I feel like hugging my inner edgy self. Culling to wearing monochromatic pieces won’t hurt. Especially with black. Just learn to put the right ones together to come up with a prim one.

Black jumper from Lee | Black beanie from Oxygen | Black ribbon cuff from H&M

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