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Hello lovelies! Apparently, my birth month is about to come to an end. I’m excited to celebrate the birthday of our Savior but I want the days not to come too quickly yet. Why? As some of you read my previous blog post, I’m currently looking for a job as of this moment and it’s been a couple of months since I started doing so.

As I seek God’s will, I’m constantly praying for me to be finally hired before this year 2016 ends. I know I’m still young so for sure there would be lots of opportunities heading my way. But then, I want to start 2017 right, being able to finally have a job where I can start anew. For me to be able to already start growing (and enjoying at the same time) and be able to make things right. I know God knows my heart and He knows how much I want to finally be hired already so suffice to say that He will make a way for me to get through this and be able to move forward in life. I believe that He’s preparing to something better for He can turn any situation into a blessing.

Anyhow, as for today’s look, it’s evident in the header photo that this is a backlog. And when I say backlog, this look is taken more than a year ago. Talk about backtrack, eh? This is one of the looks that I used to plan of not posting anymore but change of heart took place, I must say. This particular look is one of those days where I’m not in the mood to wear something too eye catching. Laidback self took over but I made sure it’s not too mundane as well. Just being me, I guess.

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23rd

​Good day everyone! How formal can I get? Hahahaha! Anyway, I’m currently celebrating my 23rd year of existence. I must say that I’ve learned a lot of things this year. I made a lot of wrong decisions this year and I also realized a lot of things that happened because of my negligence in the past.

I may not be perfect but I’m constantly praying for God to guide me in every decision I’ll make in the coming days. I’m also praying that as I exert a lot of effort in applying/looking for a job, I would be able to finally get a job at least before the year 2016 ends. And I pray and believe that as I give my 100% best this time, I’ll be able to already grow consistently and gain new knowledge and experience along the way.

For today’s look, since I just turned 23 today (Omg, talk about adult-ing!), I decided to post what I wore on my cousin’s wedding last month at Fernwood Gardens with my family and my grandpa. As some of you might noticed, my usual color palette ranges from muted colors to pastel ones. This time, I opted to wear a white lace dress and black heels on that day. Not too over the top since I’m not one of the sponsors nor one of the special guests or whatnot. I also included some random photos that I adore during the said wedding.

And for some flair, I decided to come up with a street-ish boyish version of the look. I borrowed my brother’s jacket to conceal and salt away your attention to the factual size of my waist and convene a different feel on the overall look together with my “boy meets girl” cap I recently bought. Here it is!

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Hi there lovelies! Before October bids goodbye, here I am, almost not posting anything again in le blog. Sorry, I’m currently looking for a job at the moment and I must say, I’m in the process of finding myself. Looking for that thing where I would do best. Most of us tend to take things for granted then have regrets of not taking something seriously later on.

I, myself have recently done that. That’s why I promised God and myself that I would make sure not to let any blessing come to waste again. I’ve been looking for a job this whole month of October but it felt like it’s been a couple of months! It’s a fine line between me, not being a homebody and me, aspiring to be somebody someday. I may not know yet what in specific I would do best. But one thing’s for sure: God have everything taken care of – He is the God of all miracles!

Few months ago, we went to Century City Mall to satisfy our tummies in Hole in the Wall but since we went there too early with our hungry tummies, the said food place is still closed (and since we still have other errands to attend to afterwards) so we decided to head over Le Petit Souffle which I must say is one of the most dreamy place I’ve ever been – not to mention their food is stellar. Try their Mac & Cheese!

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Here’s the complete set of what we ate at Le Petit Souffle:

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For this particular look, I must say it’s a lovechild of my obsession for florals and the color black! Keeping things muted and not too bright in the eyes.

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Annyeong! I know in my recent post (not so recent, sorry.), it was stated there that I already came back from an unplanned hiatus. I even posted a photo titled “Welcome back” last August and posted a couple of posts but after that, I wasn’t able post something again. Let’s say I’m going through something and I’m letting God work in my life right now, trusting Him that He will make things right in my life as I exert in doing so as well.

Anyway, with today’s look, when my brother brought his oversized black coat for our photoshoot (felt like Ms. Detective with the said piece, eh?), my eyes went zany and incorporated it with my grey kitty dress and went on with my kpop fangirl self by wearing my white knee high socks with my black wedge for that street look with kpop flavor on it. Sometimes, dressing up is all about mix and matching your statement pieces and basing it whatever floats your boat on that day, right?

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Up and Down

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Hello there! Here I am keeping up with the unplanned hiatus that was concluded just a week ago. And these days, I can say that for some substantial reason, I feel like I have too many dreams in life.

Having said that, I convened with a question: Is it okay to have too many goals in life? Ang dame kong gustong malearn and ipursue! I don’t why. I know I have to trust God’s plan in my life that I don’t suppose to get my life figured out yet since I’m just 22 years old but..but.. I really sincerely seriously don’t know!

Maybe I just want to make sure I won’t end up as a person who just stays at home all day everyday without goals at all in life or aspirations in order for him/her to be a better version of himself/herself. Yes, I think that’s it. As of now, I’m planning to take up Fashion Marketing/Merchandising at SoFA DesignΒ  Institute Β or Fashion Institute of the Philippines next year and if time allows me to do so, I want to take either drum and/or voice lessons at Center for Pop OR wake up my former skills in dancing at ACTS with my own money, of course.

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Yes Girl

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Hello lovely earthlings! Recently went back to the office from a two-weeks leave due to health reasons. I’ve been taking medications like what I’ve disclosed on my recent blog post and I also went back to my doctor a couple of times (latest was yesterday) and I just opt to rake off 3 valuable lessons that he told me to bear in mind that everyone else can do so as well.

1. Never compare yourself to people – especially to someone who’s lacking same as what you do. To those you look up to, you can use them as an inspiration to do better.

2.Don’t set your hopes too high and expect yourself to reach your goals right away. Great things take time.

3. Don’t dwell on the past anymore because it will just hinder you from growing and it won’t take you anywhere.

And for today’s look, to cinch that waist of mine that went bigger as my love for food grew bigger as well, I opt to wear a long outerwear to look slim paired with denim shorts to achieve the denim on denim trend which I’m fond of nowadays.

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No Way

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Annyeong! My deep apologies for being in a unintentional hiatus for the past few months. I must say I’ve been very depressed nowadays. Well if some of you has already read or follow the streaks of blog posts I had for the past 3 years, you would know I’ve been with this formidable condition. Which is why I decided to go on a hiatus because rather than elucidating my rigorous condition, I chose to remain silent and curbed. I’m currently looking for getting myself diagnosed by a psychiatrist or whatnot. I felt like it’s already being reflected on my work in the office. I guess this is what you get from disregarding the fact that I need to consult a doctor way back just because my mom said it’s all in the head although I know that she doesn’t have a concrete idea on what I’ve been through/going through.

After a few years of keeping it to myself, I decided to let it out and thus, I already told them everything. That’s when I started to take medications. Moving forward, I don’t want to let anything and anyone hinder my growth and go out and pursue my dreams. No way, honey!

I’m planning to take either fashion styling or a makeup course next year since I know for a fact that even if I’ve been in the blogging industry for quite some time but I’m still up for huge improvement.

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Don’t Matter

Oh hello! Many things happened in the past month and thank God I got regularized from my recent work. Although I’m still in the midst of improvement and I still commit mistakes a million times. Which opened my eyes to the realization that you really can’t fathom if the friend/s you’re with is real or not not until you see how they treat you in times of failure and despair. If they still treat you the same way they do when need something from you, then you’re blessed to have them in your life because they’re real.

Suffice to say that it’s hard for me to pinpoint as to who I consider as my bestfriend nowadays. Had some whom I’ve been very close for quite sometime but ended up as either just one of my acquaintances or worst, some even grew distant due to some irrelevant reason of theirs. Have people who I became friends from the start (or so I thought, sadly..) but next thing I know, they tend to be absurdly bipolar being too kind to me at times then will turn to my number one hater in just a snap.

Sometimes I just don’t know who to trust. That’s why I tend to create a wall between me and some people (to my crush, even, would you believe??!). It’s like I’m too afraid to open myself to them due to the fear of getting attached to them too much and might end up getting hurt and left alone again. I guess you really can’t force yourself to be part of someone’s life if they intentionally not let you be part of it.

3 Ways: Love in The Dark

Annyeong! Sorry for being inactive for a week or so. Been to diverse events since my favorite cousins is in town so I got preoccupied by their much awaited summer vacay. And so my tummy! My cheeks looks like a pair of burger buns right now, for crying out loud!

Aside from this, I’ve been to a rollercoaster of negativity with the couple of weeks of hiatus I’ve been to. Had a complicated issue with my wavemate in expense of defending a friend late last month and the feeling of not having the freedom and happiness that people of my age deserves to have due to having over-strict parents went up last week until now.

And it’s hitting me so deep. The fact that the only person you really can depend on is yourself. Which is immensely hard for me to take in. Someone who went through a lot of rejection in diverse sorts all throughout the years. Someone who’s been yearning for one thing all this time. To be loved as much as the love that she gives to everyone who she loves. To get the love that she deserves.

And I must admit it’s hard to push yourself to do best in everything when you feel like no one bothers to understand and be at your side at times like these. Because they don’t know and fathom how painful and heavy everything that you’ve been through/going through. And it’s agitating and heart wrenching to take in the fact that you don’t know what to do anymore but to pretend that everything’s okay and you always have to try hard to hold back those tears not to pour all over your face and force a smile – well, a fake one, all the time.

So help me, God. – Matthew 21:22*

To keep myself sane, I went through my closet and declare a rade on what pieces I can incorporate with my black knit see through top with faux leather short sleeves. And I opt to dole out short description on each conveying diverse sides of me in real life.

Chill Pill

When I’m on those days in which I’m not in the mood to dress up, I go for casual, toned down and laid back look. Comfort over style, well.. sometimes.

Plunge on Grunge

I’ve always or let’s say for so many years, I fell over heels with color black. Whether I’m in the mood to dress up or not. Especially nowadays. I’m not fond of wearing too much neon colors. Like when I’m wearing one piece of striking color, I keep the rest of the pieces muted.

The Kpop fangirl
Been a cray cray fangirl since early 2010. I can say that the my kpop fangirl side took over and has influenced my style on about 60-80% or more. But of course, I still keep up with the cons of thr tropical and excessively hot country I’m in.