Fear Not

Oh hi! Some of you might be surprised as to why it seems like I’ve been active with my SNS lately. Well, let’s say something went wrong with my work and with that, I’ve been applying to various companies this week. Suffice to say, I feel like I’m in a roller-coaster of mixed emotions as of the moment. I’m trying to keep myself composed and positive as much as possible. Pulling off my best actress mask as much as I can. Although truth be told, it’s draining and tiring like zany. 😦 But what I always do is trust on God’s will and plan for my life.

Because I was so weak and frail back in the days when I was a rebel who just do whatever she felt like doing. And I’m pretty sure if I stayed that way today, I bet I already commited suicide. Growing up, with everything that I’ve been through in life, I can say that I changed in a way I don’t expect myself to be. With God as my refuge and secure fortress, together with what I learned from the hefty amount of pain, failures and rejection I’ve encountered in the past, I can say that I’m absolutely not the same as what I am before. I may not say that I’ve able to overcome my insecurities that the past has caused me but I can say, I’m stronger and wiser now. Not letting life’s big rocks stoop me down just like that.

I believe and proclaim that God would make a way for me to be hired with the best company and job wherein I would build a long-term career and would help me grow as a person. And later on, be able to pursue and fulfill my dreams and goals in life. For this look, it was taken at the National Museum a couple of weeks ago when I had a date with my brother-photographer. Wanting to channel that girl who finds comfort in art and being that girl of mysteries look, here’s what I wore:

Skirt & Shoes from H&M | Leggings from Claire’s

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Two-Way Street

Indubitablely, I ascertain that everyone of us have their own circle of friends & people who no matter how hard we try of erasing them from our lives, it just kept on haunting us and we always end up going back to them, isn’t it? Glum as it may be, but these are the ones we can’t steer clear of. Oh well!

In any relationship, it should always be a two-way street. In other words, as what we frequently hear from here and there, the principle of give and take should be in the picture. It’s alright to let others give and dole out their blessings (or perhaps, anything they can offer to you that money can’t buy like their love, time and effort). There’s utterly nothing wrong with that as long as you know how to give something back to them when you’ve given a chance.

Like for instance, when your friends fondly treats you for merienda or lunch, perhaps, it’s alright to be in raptures and euphoricly cheery, but you should also by hook or by crook, give something back to them like treating them for a snack to nibble or perhaps, treat them on your birthday. As what they say, Wag puro kabig. Wag take ng take. Learn to give din! In love/special relationships we have, it’s okay to let your special someone exert effort to make you feel how special you are to them. But never take it for granted rather, give them back the ardour and love they give to you. For people has its limitations. When they feel that they are predominantly abused, well, you can’t blame them if they someday come to a decision to leave you.

As for my case, I get easily attached to people (I know I’ve appraised this before in my past blog post). I think that’s one of the principal reason why people tend to abuse for me for my excessive amity and bounty towards them. I frequently dole out more than I can offer to the people I consider dear to me. That’s why by a wide margin, most people take advantage it negatively.I don’t know why I find it so hard to leave people behind but those people effortlessly leave me behind though I’ve given too much for them to feel how special they are to me. Pardon me for my kadramahan, will you? I just need to vent this substantial burden my heart is bearing since the world began.

Good thing, God is always there for me. As what in His word says in Psalms 73:26 (which is one of my favorite verses), “My heart and my flesh may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” Apart from Him, we are nothing. I deem when I don’t have Him with me, I gave up and I wouldn’t be able to get through with all these hefty burdens and feeling that I am so little I’m grappling with.

Going back with our main topic of relationships mugging up its factual disposition in our lives and converging how it should be deal with, we should learn to appreciate and never disregard those people who takes time, exerts effort and bestow all the love they can offer just to make you feel how they hold dear and special you are to them. Moreover, we must supervene with the give and take principle in all relationships we have with people and never hesitate to mete out & share our blessings to others for we will be blessed by giving back to others. (Mark 9:41)

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#RealityCheck

Before we get too serious, say hello to August! πŸ™‚

As the weather splits up, sun and rain fought non stop for the spot, so is the haphazard thoughts hurling into our roguish minds that tend to confuse us to declare a decision in order for us to carry on with our respective lives, numerous interrogations arises and tend to deviate our point of view on the dark side that gives us the urge to do the wrong thing that put us in deep trouble.

Sometimes, though it contradicts on the nature of people, not being able to survive alone, each one of us should have our alone time where we could cogiate and internalize things that kept on bothering us and which we find hard to unravel and get to the bottom of. We should perceive and have a reality check once in a while.

Here’s some of the realities we should patently fathom and dole on to others, as well.

#RealityCheck Nothing lasts forever!

-When something came into your life that you’re exceedingly beholden, make the most out of it. For it would someday disappear. This is general. Like for example, when it’s your dream of becoming well known and notable actor/actress, it may be overwhelming and ecstatically too surreal being the center of attention all the time. But then, it would soon die down so you shouldn’t waste your salary on claptrap and always stay humble (Proverbs 15:33). For when your fame dissipates, the people who used to appreciate you wouldn’t hesitate to leave you. And on love, when you felt like that the guy/girl you’re with loves you more than anything in this world, don’t be infallible and dependent on that person too much. Like what they say, /Lahat ng sobra, masama!/ And as for success’ case, even you feel like you’re in the foremost position on your craft already and feel like you know everything, don’t be too vainglorious. Even Einstein had his bewildering turndowns and rebuffs.

#RealityCheck Everything/everyone is subject to change.

– No one should think that they don’t have the power to alter and amend themselves to become a more well off and better version of themselves. That they are hopeless and a failure just because they fail to perform well on their expertise. If you just let God help you, you will never be in stain (Isaiah 50:7). But of course, don’t be like /Juan Tamad/ who merely sat under the tree and slept with his mouth open, waiting for the tree’s fruits to fall on his mouth. When you desire change to take place in your life, it should start from you. Do whatever it takes to attain it in a way that you would also mug up new discoveries in order for you to share it with the people around you. And when life teaches you a lesson or confer you a warning to change a certain behavior, you shouldn’t take it as “Life is so unfair! Why me?”, Instead, take it as a blessing and say, “God, this may be distressing for me, but please help me to learn from this.” (Proverbs 16:3)

#RealityCheckΒ Everything happens for a reason.

– Life may seem unfair and bigoted at times, cliche as it may sound. But everything happens for a reason. We may not fully cognize and discern clearly what it is, for now. But in due time, we would. All we have to do is put our hopes in Him (Romans 5:5). Like Abraham (Romasn 4:18-22), against all hope, though he had every reason not to trust God, he still did. So whenever you feel the world is against you and you can’t precisely make out the reason behind all of it, just put on the full armor of God so that you can endure hardships when the evil comes to pound you with anxiety and distress (Romans 6:13-17).

#RealityCheck Don’t force yourself to a person/to people who doesn’t want you around them.

– When you’re type of person who do whatever it takes to give their best to the people they exceedingly hold dear that was by and large take advantage of negatively by most people, when someone just take your presence for granted and you feel like they just want the idea of someone is chasing after them but you can tell by their actions that they don’t consider you as someone substantial and significant to them and they can carry on with their life without you, stop letting them manoeuvre and have power over you and start moving on with your life without them. It will just make you feel petty and like you’re so negligble.

These realities may sound so unfussy and austere. Cliche as it all may be but we can’t largely fathom and get a hold of it. We must mug up and resign ourselves to it, in order for us to give rise to a decision that we wouldn’t have regrets in the end of the day. For when you probe and mull over things and take a crack at it first and seek to assidiously get the picture before doing anything, you will gain favor (Proverbs 13:15;14:18)

A man is praised according to his wisdom, but men with warped minds are despised. -Proverbs 12:8

Expect the Unexpected!

If you thoroughly know me, you would cotton on my reason of like documenting this huge achievement that God has blessed me with. As what I’ve mentioned in Facebook, believe it or not, I was providently in the top 5 who attained the highest score in our prelims exam and prelim grade!

Wondering what subject am I talking about? *drum roll* Law class! I bet voliminous of you would say, so what if I’m in the top 5? Well, I’m not that I’m-always-on-the-top-and-I’m-used-to-it type of person who don’t get super exultant that much anymore when achieving something because they are used to being in the foremost state of almost everything, whether academically or whatsoever.

If you still can’t apprehend why I’m this roused and cheery, since I started studying, I never pull off high grades and acquire those loads of medals, trophies and exceptional recognitions get. Like my brother, since the world began, he fondly attain multifarious awards, medals, etc. And until now, (I know I’ve mentioned this before!) he’s still on the uppermost position of everything and does things better than me, like I’m a mediocre version of him. Okay okay, change topic.

Well, if you are/had been a business ad student, you would get a hold of the awe-inspiring I’m feeling right now, being in the top 5 in our law class unexpectedly. Law is not like the other subjects that we habitually ignore and we cannot just pay no heed to though most of us regard it as a subject that we are anxious because of its convoluted and perplexing states and cases, yes?

But then, bluntly, something tells me my mom is not that ecstatic for what I’ve acquired. When I blissfully told her about this, she just exclaimed it’s JUST our prelims. She will give me a reward when I acquire this particular achievement on our finals. And you all know the feeling of being unappreciated despite of your accomplishment you’ve blessed with, isn’t it? Particularly when you rarely attain this kind of achievement? Oh well! 😦

On the brighter side, when you really trust God and deem that there’s nothing He cannot do for us (Luke 1:37), especially when you work hard and do whatever it takes to do better in everything you do, he will reward you for the all the hard work you’ve done. (Proverbs 12:14).

Verses to ponder:

Deutoronomy 28:13 – The Lord will make you the head , not the tail. If you pay attention to the commands of the Lord your God that I give you this day and carefully follow them, you will always be on the top, never at the bottom.

1 Corinthians 15:58– Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labour on the Lord will never be in vain.

 

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Friendship Over??

Greetings earthlings! Our topic for the day is about friendship and relationships we value or for some reason, neglect a few whether it’s intentionally or an outcome of a certain conflict or misunderstanding. Well, beyond any doubt, almost everyone of us have their own peers right? It just differs from its number and how long have you been so imminent to each other.

Well, for you, how do you define friendship? For several people, friends are their second family who they can turn to at all times and it’s to whom they seek advice and one of the people they desire to be with by any means. On the other hand, some people, for a specific reason, just tend to take advantage of their chums’ capabilities for their own benefit and if they find you humdrum already, they would just simply leave you and act as if they never been a part of your life.

Furthermore, you might be wondering where I’m coming from and what crossed my mind for me to come up with this blog post about this matter, yes? Well, even before, I already have diverse encounters about friendships and relationships As what I’ve mentioned here, I’ve immensely experienced bullying since Grade 2, right? Having said that, I had divergent encounters on being ignored, running after people that don’t value as much as I do, being taken advantage of, people suddenly leaving me and such. And at present, I still do encounter those kinds of people.

And not just for me, but I bet for all of us, when friendships ends suddenly, whether you know the reason or not, it tends to cause you pain and you feel like questioning yourself where did you lack for that friend to leave you, right? Well, all we have to do is seek help and trust God for He is our best friend. (Psalms 46:1-3 – God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with surging.)

Furthermore, though I have a friend right now whom I’ve been close for more than a year and she “suddenly” ignored (and ignoring) me for no apparent reason, I would still continue loving her as much as I do before. (Proverbs 17:17)

I strongly suggest that you do the same with yours, dearies! πŸ™‚

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Love Came Down

Well, summer is about to end. And since I’m just laying around le house, well.. I’m currently uhmm.. feeling that my insecurities are taking over and filling up and yes. I know, as a Christian, I may sound like I’m not thankful and it’s like I’m underestimating how He created me. Multifarious of you might not understand where I’m coming from and why I’m acting this way.

Well, to cut the story short, since when I was in second grade back then, I was bullied until I graduated from HS, this had gone on and on and on. Furthermore, this caused me to question myself and God, as well. On why did my life turned out like this. Why do I need to run after people just for them to notice and appreciate me. Just for them not to leave me alone. Divergent thoughts hurled into my mind as everybody criticize me and underestimate my weaknesses and capabilities. As I experienced being hated, disgusted and a laughing stock among our section and excessively deceived by the guys I used to adorn. Did things a girl don’t normally do for a guy that should be in the other way around. And on that specific phase of my life, I was so weak, have no one to turn to and feel like giving up.

And now, though the bullying had finally stopped, I still experience being the less liked among our clique at times, being ignored by the people I love that resulted fo me to look like a lame dog running after people just for them to notice and appreciate me and many more.

But then, how was I different from before? Well, as what I’ve mentioned before, I was a born again Christian, right? Before, I must say, I’m much of a Pseudo-Christian. Christian by name but acts like an unbeliever. However, after I undergone a one year bible college/training on our church back in 2010, I was enlightened and divulged with the goodness of our Most High. O:)

I waded through the fact that when faced with trials and when we flick through bad times, when we seek His face and let our souls be filled with His word, then we already have a weapon against trials! ( Ephesians 6:17- Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.) And when we do, we will blessed in everything we do. (James 1:25- But the man who looks intently in the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it – he’ll be lessed in what he does.) When in doubt (James 1:6-8), we must buckled down and persistent in standing firm in the Lord (Excerpt from Isaiah 7:9- If you don’t stand firm in your faith, you’ll not stand at all.; 2 Cor 1:24) When faced with fears, we shouldn’t hesitate to ask for His help. After all, He is our Jehovah Shalom, the Prince of Peace. We shouldn’t be afraid for He’s always there to help us. (Lamentations 3:56-57).

Hereafter, we should also goad and fortify each other (2 Sam 22:29-31; Hebrews 10:22-24) and we should trust God even we can’t find any reason to, just like how Abraham did. ( Romans 4:18-22) Besides, we believe in Him thouh we haven’t seen Him. (Hebrews 11:1- Now, faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.)

In conclusion, we should never reckon and think that we’re alone for God’s never gonna leave us nor forsake us. On top of everything, nothing can seperate us from His unfailing love.

(Romans 8:38-39- For I am convinced that neither death or life, neither angels or demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to seperate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus, our Lord.)

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