Love on the Weekend

**This post was supposedly posted back in early March. Errors on the blog so it was published just now. Blunder!!**

Annyeong! Yes, I know I’ve been inactive for a month or so. Supposedly post something about Valentine’s day last February but guess what, March is about to end after a few days. Must say, I’ve been busy these past few weeks. Walked past through our training and after a week, everyone’s in shock finding ourselves in a one week upskill training for sales! 

I may not have a great experience with outbound sales back then but I know and believe that God will surely take care of me. He knows how much I value and go after growth and stability. As He said in His word, He is the God who’s faithful in fulfilling His promises to us.

With this look, I must admit I don’t dress up that much as frequent as before. It depends on my mood and I avoid being in my over dressed self like what I used to before. Opted for a double denim but still keeping everything in control.

Yes Girl

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Hello lovely earthlings! Recently went back to the office from a two-weeks leave due to health reasons. I’ve been taking medications like what I’ve disclosed on my recent blog post and I also went back to my doctor a couple of times (latest was yesterday) and I just opt to rake off 3 valuable lessons that he told me to bear in mind that everyone else can do so as well.

1. Never compare yourself to people – especially to someone who’s lacking same as what you do. To those you look up to, you can use them as an inspiration to do better.

2.Don’t set your hopes too high and expect yourself to reach your goals right away. Great things take time.

3. Don’t dwell on the past anymore because it will just hinder you from growing and it won’t take you anywhere.

And for today’s look, to cinch that waist of mine that went bigger as my love for food grew bigger as well, I opt to wear a long outerwear to look slim paired with denim shorts to achieve the denim on denim trend which I’m fond of nowadays.

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3 Ways: Love in The Dark

Annyeong! Sorry for being inactive for a week or so. Been to diverse events since my favorite cousins is in town so I got preoccupied by their much awaited summer vacay. And so my tummy! My cheeks looks like a pair of burger buns right now, for crying out loud!

Aside from this, I’ve been to a rollercoaster of negativity with the couple of weeks of hiatus I’ve been to. Had a complicated issue with my wavemate in expense of defending a friend late last month and the feeling of not having the freedom and happiness that people of my age deserves to have due to having over-strict parents went up last week until now.

And it’s hitting me so deep. The fact that the only person you really can depend on is yourself. Which is immensely hard for me to take in. Someone who went through a lot of rejection in diverse sorts all throughout the years. Someone who’s been yearning for one thing all this time. To be loved as much as the love that she gives to everyone who she loves. To get the love that she deserves.

And I must admit it’s hard to push yourself to do best in everything when you feel like no one bothers to understand and be at your side at times like these. Because they don’t know and fathom how painful and heavy everything that you’ve been through/going through. And it’s agitating and heart wrenching to take in the fact that you don’t know what to do anymore but to pretend that everything’s okay and you always have to try hard to hold back those tears not to pour all over your face and force a smile – well, a fake one, all the time.

So help me, God. – Matthew 21:22*

To keep myself sane, I went through my closet and declare a rade on what pieces I can incorporate with my black knit see through top with faux leather short sleeves. And I opt to dole out short description on each conveying diverse sides of me in real life.

Chill Pill

When I’m on those days in which I’m not in the mood to dress up, I go for casual, toned down and laid back look. Comfort over style, well.. sometimes.

Plunge on Grunge

I’ve always or let’s say for so many years, I fell over heels with color black. Whether I’m in the mood to dress up or not. Especially nowadays. I’m not fond of wearing too much neon colors. Like when I’m wearing one piece of striking color, I keep the rest of the pieces muted.

The Kpop fangirl
Been a cray cray fangirl since early 2010. I can say that the my kpop fangirl side took over and has influenced my style on about 60-80% or more. But of course, I still keep up with the cons of thr tropical and excessively hot country I’m in.

Roll Deep

Annyeong! It’s been a long time since I was able to post here and my deep apologies for that. I’ve been busy this past few weeks and thank God that after all the effort that I convened to find a job was not wasted. I’m still in the same industry but this time, the account that I’m in this time is related to my course which is in sales. I may not have actual experience with sales yet since this is just the second company that I’m able to work with.

And of course, after all what happened to the previous one before, I made a vow to myself that I would put my best game this time. I would do everything for me to excel and be able to stay/last long with this company. Not so I can brag that I’m employed and whatnot. But for me to be able to prove myself that I can do better and I’m not a failure. No one is. It’s all in your hands if you will let yourself stay with just the same picture or go after your dreams and never stop aiming for continous growth. In order for me to do that, I came up with a game plan I have to firmly comply with.

1. Learn from your mistakes and don’t settle for anything less than you deserve. (For crying out loud!)

I actually mentioned this before on my preceding posts and to be honest, I wasn’t able to abide in it myself. Easier said than done, eh? But in able for you to move forward, you have to stop clinging on people and things that you wholeheartedly value but takes you for granted all the time, right? It’s not loyalty, it’s called breaking your own heart. Sorry if I sounded like I’m talking about something else. But you must eliminate everything that hinders you from growing. Focus more on the people who helps you go on the next step of the sucess ladder and stop wasting your time on those people who just kept on pulling you down, taking away the confidence you have in you.

2.Stay strong and never ever stop aiming higher, everytime.
Being able to win the euchre in life and overcome whatever challenges life throws at you, you must stay persistent in going after your dreams being fulfilled with a flambeau held high in your hand. Guzzle whatever new learnings that you are to acquire as you go on with your journey through life. Hard times may come when you least expect it and yes, we may find it unyieldingly hard to overcome at times. But always keep in mind your very reason as to why you hanker for self-betterment and trust that God will always be there to pick us up and direct us to the path where He know that will help us to pursue our dreams.

3. Nothing’s permanent but go for something that will last long.
When I started looking for a job upon finishing college, my mindset used to hanker for just having a job and not to waste time being unemployed. But one thing I learned with what happened to my previous job, I realized that I have to precipitate and do something for me to find not just a job, but a career. There’s a hefty difference between the two. Having a job would only give you the title of being employed and being able to buy whatever you want. Having a career would not only give you the potent to buy everything you want and the honor of being employed but it will also yield conspicious success and unsurpassed growth.

** As of the moment, I’m planning to boycott Lookbook next year. I will just post the looks I posted here on the blog before but haven’t able to post at Lookbook next month.

Poison

Oh hi! It’s been a while since I had all the time in the world wherein I could like roll around social media and do anything I want under the sun. I’m err.. a bit complaining. But just wholeheartedly though, since the reason behind it was my working schedule which is predominantly opposing to my normal body clock. And I’m still pretty much in the adjusting period so please bear with me.

As much as I want to be like the unstoppable and brave girl I want to be in order for me to like excel on everything I do which will be the bridge for me, going after what I wanna be in the future, well.. there was this huge wall hindering me. I know I have to like mature, move forward and shrug off all the insecurities that the past had caused me. But there are things that tend to make me feel so little of myself. Sometimes I can’t decipher what was happening to me, really.

One of those is the (I’m not sure if I’m being selfless or stupid) fact that I tend to forgive those people who actually leave me behind like a toy he’s already sick of and thus, finds another one to play with. I know this is like so 2013! And deja vu even came into the picture. I just had my biggest heartbreak then came another one who just throw everything behind. I’m honestly sick of this disposition I’m in. What makes things worst is the fact that I feel like I’m always either the riff-off version of someone or the under rated in a certain group I’m with.

I always force myself to believe in myself and I swear, I really want to leave everything that belongs to the past, seriously. What’s hard is when deja vu kicks in and you kept on meeting people of the same kind you met in the past. Or worst, // than before! That’s why whenever mind and heart wants to take their dispute into the boxing ring, even how hard it is, don’t go where your heart is pulling you but you know deep inside you that it will sooner or later, hurt you in the long run. Go to the path where you think it’s right for you to be in.

Don’t commit the same mistake. That’s what the past 2 years have taught me to keep in mind. And maybe, we just have to accept that some people are just not meant to be with you even how much you love them to the point of holding on to your promise to each other that you will always have each other when everything’s gone and that you will be better together. My gosh, Dig by Incubus, please stop playing on and on into my head! 😦

To keep things clean, I opted to wear basic but of course, to keep things not too mundane, I incorporated my DIY denim detachable collar into my outfit for the day. In time for the this season’s fixation for denim!

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Brave

Howdy people! It’s been only like a week since I posted but it feels like my recent post was like a couple of weeks or so already. Why? Well, let’s put it this way. God has been good to me this past week that had past. Why again? I’ve got multiple job offers but scrapped it over a recent one which is accessible and near our house. What is ironic in it was out of all the job applications/interviews and job fairs I’ve had/been, truth be told, I seem to avoid BPO companies (also with agencies, insurance companies and such) all the time since if ever, I would be working usually in the night time which would be predominantly contrary to my usual sleeping routine wherein I usually sleep at around 11pm or so then wake up at 6:30am for our morning walk in our subdivision. Which would make me (pretty much!) a night owl right?

It started when I attended the job fair at SM Megamall earlier part ofΒ a couple of weeks agoΒ which I think is like Wednesday. Since it was organized by WorkAbroad.ph, most of the booths caters to aspiring applicants who’s looking for a job abroad. With that, I only applied to 5 or 6 booths and decided to leave the venue upon having my last round of beating the bushesΒ and checking every booth not until a girl from a certain BPO company approached and asked me if I’m interested and said if I don’t want to be in the night shift, they also offer day shift and so I tried. When we had our group initial interview, I passed which landed to me, passing the rest of the recruitment process later on (Although it’s on the night shift since it turned out, day shift agents are for the experienced ones, after all). But then, I was assigned at the Ortigas branch of the said BPO company. And so, I tried to apply with another company and passed again. This time, I got assigned at Shaw Boulevard site which is a bit far more than the previous one.

Furthermore, my mom told me to try applying for another company with the same industry which is much accessible and near our place since it’s dangerous and pretty much risky going home late at night after work, especially for a girl like me. Finally, I found one around Quezon City (Eton Centris) and got hired just recently. With that, my life would officially change with regards to my transition from student into a working one next week. With that, I realized that I have to continue not chasing and running after people who don’t value me as much as I value them anymore. I know I’ told myself to do so many times before but I’m a grown up now and I convened with the fact that people who don’t/can’t even make time for you despite their busy schedule just like I do with them don’t deserve your time, effort and love.

If you really want me to be in your life, go out of your way and prove it to me. If you don’t, why would I force you to stay? I’ve had enough ofΒ people who’s just good with feeding you with sweet words. If you have to force yourself to be in the lives of people you hold dear so much but they end up ignoring you, why would you fight for that person? This applies to my relationships in general, by the way. With my 21 years of existence, I’ve encountered this many times before. So, as I enter the business world, I want to leave everything that belongs to the past and those people who just kept on making me doubt on myself behind which hinders me from loving myself and growing, as well. You can’t just come and go in my life whenever you want and just talk to me when you’re just bored and got nothing to do. No one deserves to be just anyone’s past time, second option or worst, back up plan. Sometimes, even if it hurts, you have to be brave enough to move forward with or without the people you value the most but don’t value you as much. Even those who promised that you’ll always have each other when everything else is gone but ended up leaving you in the pedestal.

With regards to my look post for today, I opted for monochromatic pieces and paired it with my favorite denim jacket. Summer ended last month so cover-ups would be like no biggie these days. And with marsala being Pantone’s color of the year, I went for marsala-colored socks which added to that laidback feel of my outfit. I hope you guys like it!

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Such A Minnie (Meanie)

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Annyeong lovelies! Well, truth be told, I’m finding it hard to trim down my excessive eating & pigging out everywhere nowadays. Aside from the unexpected post birthday celebration-like buffet dinner with my two cousins, aunt & uncle from the US, along with Dad & bro, I’m sure none of you will make a dispute whne I say October, November & December are the best months of the year, yes? Celebrations, family gatherings & excessive shopping and pigging out here and there. So it’s pretty much the season wherein all of us are in high spirits, carefree & pretty much brisky about the holidays’ yingyangs. So it’s the season which people finds it hard to cut out that extra weight we acquire from pigging out too much, as well. Don’t we?

Personally, to be blunt, I’m currently struggling controlling myself from eating too much due to consecutive celebrations and going out. Not to mention, there are lots of November celebrants in our family. Then followed by next month’s feasts. Anyway, I think it’s obvious as to whom is my favorite disney character is, right? Minnie Mouse! Well, aside from the fact that the said cutie patootie character’s show is one of my favorite shows to watch back in my childhood days, along with other Playhouse Disney shows, Nickeledeon & Cartoon Network shows, perhaps, some of you might notice the fact that I have a huge fixation for ribbons, yes? Well, that’s why I love Minnie so much then!

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Black velvet bow from Forever 21, Denim Pullover from Topshop

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Catching Shadows

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I bet for those who have read my preceding blog posts, you’ll recognize that I tend to affirm opulently the state of my heart right now. In fact, I’m currently fond of sad love songs and of course, my adornment for indie songs is ubiquitous, isn’t it? Well, I promise that this would be the last in the bunch. After those several inculcate slaps of reality right in my face, finally, I can say I’m now progressing and have been moving on and letting go of the people who don’t deserve even a bit of me, not even a lil’piece of my precious time and attention.

It felt like fireworks shoot up the dark sky but still jumping a little when the sound of the explosion startles you. But sadly, we’re not fireworks. We’re just dying embers, quickly burning out into nothing but fading flickers, until there was darkness. Heartbreak, wow. So that’s what they herald in the movies. It felt like my whole world crumble apart in a constant replay mode. I knew love was dangerous. But I was willing to take the risk, not knowing it would be one of the biggest regret I’d had in my life. Even how cliche I may sound but there’s a guy that I meant to be with. (in God’s time – I hope it’s soon though!) I’m not giving up hope. That’s what makes our humanity intact.

People change. You wouldn’t be the same person as who you were when you’re 5. So why whine over things/people who/that are gone and won’t come back? I say, focus now. Now is what matters. And for this look (Yes, I know I posted this on Lookbook yesterday. Sorry I’m gonna be posting this just now!), well, blame it on my street-style self who took over me when I was all giddy looking for something to wear the day when we shoot this. To balance it and dole a dose of feminine touch to it, I paired it with feminine pieces which unsurprisingly, florals. Oh I adorn florals to infinity and beyond! Summer or not, on trend or not, I just love it! :3

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Denim Pullover from Mango | Sneakers from Zoo York

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Better Than Words

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Oh my! Classes are about to ensue next week. And after a couple of semesters plus our OJT training, I’m gonna finish my schooling already! Woo hoo!Β 

But on the flip side of it, that would also mean I’m gonna be bloody busy nowadays! Oh boy! But before crying over spilled milk, after this, it would also mean I can be able to focus more on blogging right?Β 

Since I didn’t able to post the specs of my preceding look (I’m very sorry!), I’d post it together with my today’s look, shall we?

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Here’s the preceding one:

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For The Love Club

Have you seen my recently concluded all black monochrome series? Stay tuned next week for its compilation, can you?
Anyway, I got so indubitably exultant when I bought this lovely cap of mine. :3 Spell love!


Having said that, I wore it on a very special church event and decided to make a look out of it.
And of course, I dole out an edgy feel into it. And I don’t know what got into me that day. Just look at my BTS (behind the scene) photos!

In case some of you might be wondering what did The Love Club got to do with my look. Well, I’ve been into indie music nowadays.
Lorde, Sky Ferreira, Lana Del Rey and such were the goddesses of my playlist.

For my look, here it is:

Supreme cap | White shirt from Bershka

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