Brave

Howdy people! It’s been only like a week since I posted but it feels like my recent post was like a couple of weeks or so already. Why? Well, let’s put it this way. God has been good to me this past week that had past. Why again? I’ve got multiple job offers but scrapped it over a recent one which is accessible and near our house. What is ironic in it was out of all the job applications/interviews and job fairs I’ve had/been, truth be told, I seem to avoid BPO companies (also with agencies, insurance companies and such) all the time since if ever, I would be working usually in the night time which would be predominantly contrary to my usual sleeping routine wherein I usually sleep at around 11pm or so then wake up at 6:30am for our morning walk in our subdivision. Which would make me (pretty much!) a night owl right?

It started when I attended the job fair at SM Megamall earlier part of a couple of weeks ago which I think is like Wednesday. Since it was organized by WorkAbroad.ph, most of the booths caters to aspiring applicants who’s looking for a job abroad. With that, I only applied to 5 or 6 booths and decided to leave the venue upon having my last round of beating the bushes and checking every booth not until a girl from a certain BPO company approached and asked me if I’m interested and said if I don’t want to be in the night shift, they also offer day shift and so I tried. When we had our group initial interview, I passed which landed to me, passing the rest of the recruitment process later on (Although it’s on the night shift since it turned out, day shift agents are for the experienced ones, after all). But then, I was assigned at the Ortigas branch of the said BPO company. And so, I tried to apply with another company and passed again. This time, I got assigned at Shaw Boulevard site which is a bit far more than the previous one.

Furthermore, my mom told me to try applying for another company with the same industry which is much accessible and near our place since it’s dangerous and pretty much risky going home late at night after work, especially for a girl like me. Finally, I found one around Quezon City (Eton Centris) and got hired just recently. With that, my life would officially change with regards to my transition from student into a working one next week. With that, I realized that I have to continue not chasing and running after people who don’t value me as much as I value them anymore. I know I’ told myself to do so many times before but I’m a grown up now and I convened with the fact that people who don’t/can’t even make time for you despite their busy schedule just like I do with them don’t deserve your time, effort and love.

If you really want me to be in your life, go out of your way and prove it to me. If you don’t, why would I force you to stay? I’ve had enough of people who’s just good with feeding you with sweet words. If you have to force yourself to be in the lives of people you hold dear so much but they end up ignoring you, why would you fight for that person? This applies to my relationships in general, by the way. With my 21 years of existence, I’ve encountered this many times before. So, as I enter the business world, I want to leave everything that belongs to the past and those people who just kept on making me doubt on myself behind which hinders me from loving myself and growing, as well. You can’t just come and go in my life whenever you want and just talk to me when you’re just bored and got nothing to do. No one deserves to be just anyone’s past time, second option or worst, back up plan. Sometimes, even if it hurts, you have to be brave enough to move forward with or without the people you value the most but don’t value you as much. Even those who promised that you’ll always have each other when everything else is gone but ended up leaving you in the pedestal.

With regards to my look post for today, I opted for monochromatic pieces and paired it with my favorite denim jacket. Summer ended last month so cover-ups would be like no biggie these days. And with marsala being Pantone’s color of the year, I went for marsala-colored socks which added to that laidback feel of my outfit. I hope you guys like it!

Soon on Lookbook.nu!