Oh hey! How are you? As for me, well, it’s our final period which equates to numerous defense for our thesis, feasibility study and the like. In short, stress! What makes it heavier than ever is my state is getting worst. My clinical depression in particular. I felt like I’m tired of loving. Scratch that. It’s like I’m sick of being stuck in the same conundrum. Loving without being loved back.
It has been said that time heals all wounds. I don’t agree for the wounds remain. In time, the mind protecting its sanity covers them and the pain lessens. Sometimes, in order for us not to get hurt further, we have to set aside the why’s. There’s a lot of questions but you don’t get to fathom all the answers. Perhaps, in time, everything will be alright. Everyone is a fool when they’re in love. We defy all the logical things in the world.
Furthermore, what I’ve learned from it was if you’re meant to be with someone, it will happen. You can’t force love. Even if your first love becomes unrequited, you should move on. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.
Maybe someone better is meant for you. Someone who will always be there and will never ever give up on you whatever life renders you. Someone who would never hurt you intentionally and would never ever replace you with another.
Someone who will never takes pleasure in messing with your feelings and plays with it like some random toy from a toy store and throws it at the floor when they’re fed up with you. Someone who’s brave and man enough to prove to you how much you mean to them. Whatever it takes. Maybe mine was caught in a traffic. Or maybe not? Only God knows. We will meet in God’s time. *winks*
Okay the lovesick commotion ends here. Sorry if I always have those frequently here in le blog nowadays. Due to my tedious state and my fixation for indie and love drunk songs atm, dark pieces never gets old in my clothes. It’s more of a staple for me. As what they say, the clothes you wear reflects what you are and what you feel inside that you don’t get to express lightheartedly for the fear of getting misjudged.
Floral Cover up from Diamond | Bow Headband from Forever 21 | Black Bow cuff from H&M